[audio - written] Selphie's Sad Times

[booyaka_boom]

*The journal starts off first with a breath, like someone is about to say something really important, but difficult to say. But instead of words, there's just a soft, slow sigh. Talking about this really isn't going to be easy, so she promptly decides to write things down instead. She writes very carefully, not committing to putting the words down until she's got them straight in her head, which is unusual for Selphie*

 

My whole life, I've never known my parents. They died when I was very young, it seemed, and recently I've gained back some memories of the orphanage I used to live in. I didn't know what they looked like, what they did, what kind of people they were. In a way, I think I accepted that. I was never adopted, and I was sent to live at a military school. That, for me, was always that. Of course I wondered. Of course I imagined they'd come back. But what I never imagined, was meeting someone here who does have memories of my parents.

These past couple of months, it's like my whole world has been flipped upside down, and I'm not even in my home world. Since the new year, one thing after another, and another. Sometimes it's just hard to know what to think anymore. It's not just this place, but the people too. I've always been a think-on-your-feet, live-in-the-moment type girl, but until recently, I don't think I ever really appreciated just how quickly everything can completely change, swept from beneath your feet, dumped on you from a great height.

Now that I've written this much, I'm not really sure what it is I wanted to say. I suppose, just that, even though this world isn't home, there's no underestimating what might happen, and how the people we meet here might affect us.

Just keep happy, everyone.

Just keep doing the things that make you smile.

*Then the journal entry finishes. There's not the usual signing of her name, not the usual message of love and peace, nor a scribbled love heart, or a smiley face. But she does go back to underline that last line, if even for her own sake than anyone else's*
 

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[hiken]

[Ace hadn't actually read the journal, but he was training with his will. As a result, he had access to the impressions of many, many emotions going up and down between the Sun and the Moon. So, he halted his sleepmeditation to go approach the source of what felt like immense melancholy, immediately noting it was coming from Selphie's room.

He crossed his arms, staring at her door while wondering what the problem could have been.]

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[booyaka_boom]

*Done with her entry, Selphie looked it over once or twice, the finally closed the journal. Putting it aside, she gets up for a perfectly valid reason, and opens her door to find Ace standing there*

Whoa, hi! Uh, you okay?

Action;

[hiken]

[There, Selphie opened the door only to find him looking like an idiot. Ace jumped a little.]

Uh! What?

[theartofboom]

[Chandra, like Ace, had been training herself at something, sitting up on the prow of the ship and taking in the scent of salt...trying to focus herself enough to actually use what that guy had tried to teach her. It wasn't the easiest thing, drawing on her polar opposite's mana, but she was at least managing to get little bits of magic to work.

Unfortunately, Blue magic was just so darn boring, and while she worked she had her journal open. Which meant she got Selphie's message loud and clear. And that meant that maybe it was time to go check on the kid.

First stop was her room, where she gathered up a bottle of an orange-ish liquor and a couple of glasses. And then she knocks on Selphie's door.]

Hey, Selphie. It's me, Chandra. I got somethin' for ya.

[booyaka_boom]

*From her place curled up in a chair with a blanket and some plush toys, Selphie looks up from her journal and calls over*

Hey, it's open. Come on in.

[theartofboom]

[She pops open the door, shoves the bottle in ahead of her, wiggling it as she enters.]

Thought you could use a little liquid cheer. And I thought I could use a break from...ugh...studying.

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[ex_automobiles598]

[Asami decides to just cut to the chase after catching the journal entry. So Selphie will get a soft knock at her door a good 10 minutes or so later]

[Action]

[booyaka_boom]

*Closing her journal, Selphie carries it as she walks over to the door, opening it and peeking through carefully. But on seeing Asami she smiles and opens the door wider*

Hey.

[Action]

[ex_automobiles598]

Hey.

[She doesn't step inside, just stays where she is]

I, uh...caught a glimpse of your message. Just thought I'd check up.

[Private Voice]

[formerabyssinian]

[He knows that sigh anywhere.]

Thanks for sharing with us. [Talking about something so personal takes courage.] Are you alright?

[Private Voice]

[booyaka_boom]

Maybe I shouldn't have?

*Because, after all, what was it to anyone else? She's doing her best to suppress another sigh*

Hmm... I think so. Yes.

I'm fine.

I'll be okay.

*A lot of uncertainty, but she's trying to sound sure, if not too cheery*

[Private Voice]

[formerabyssinian]

Why do you think that?

[Selphie doesn't sound so convincing, in his opinion.]

Would you like some company?

[Voice]

[delicate_maiden]

Hey, if you ever want to talk about anything, I'll listen, you know? That's what these magic book thingies are for.

[Voice]

[booyaka_boom]

Thank you, Kai! That's really nice of you to say! I just gotta clear my head some, that's all. Keep myself busy and stuff.

[Voice]

[delicate_maiden]

I get it, I get it. I totally know how that is. Still, sometimes you gotta just let it all out.

[Written]

[redfootzeff]

[Zeff reads over the message that Selphie wrote a few times before he goes to work in the galley. As the ship's cook, it's his job to work on morale just as much as it is to feed the crew. After all, he can provide a little taste of home in the middle of the vast ocean. That's the only reason he's doing something like this. (He's not a big softie no matter what some people might claim.)]

[So he rolls up his sleeves and sets to work, prepping the ingredients and putting together something that, hopefully, will raise the girl's spirits: Another of those tart-yet-sweet baked apples and a strawberry daiquiri.]

[Only then does he put ink to paper.]

Come to the galley. I've got something for you.

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[booyaka_boom]

*Selphie doesn't reply, just makes her way to the galley as soon as she gets the message. When she appears in the doorway, her expression is interested, but confused. The galley isn't the usual kind of place that she gets called to*

Hey, Zeff?

[Action Forever!]

[redfootzeff]

Sit down.

[He nods to the galley table with the drink and baked apple.]

I need you to taste test that drink. Been a while since I made one of those and I need a second opinion.

[Right. Because it's not because he made it for her out of concern.]

[voice]

[darknessinside]

[Speaks a little hesitantly, like he's really not sure if he's helping or just making her more sad.]

It's not just me, you know. Sora or Kairi, they'd be able to tell you about your family, too. So if you ever want any more stories...

[voice]

[booyaka_boom]

Aww, I know, Riku. And I'm not upset, or angry, or anything...

*Because she realises now just how her post might have sounded*

It's just, so much to take in. Part of me wants to know everything, all there is to know about them. But maybe... I have to give myself a bit of time to think about what you've already told me.

[voice]

[darknessinside]

Yeah, I get that. It is a lot to suddenly have thrown at you.

I hope you're starting to feel a little better, at least.

Written;

[streetferret]

What brought back your memories of the orphanage?

Written;

[booyaka_boom]

I met a friend, that I didn't remember, and he told me all about it. Then we visited the place, and I remembered more.

[Text]

[wanderer_from_ys]

*He was right, Selphie did seem to be sad. But over what he's not sure. This is the nearest he's going to get to find out, it seems.*

I think as much as the people we meet might hurt us, they can also make our lives better by getting to know them. Even if it's just the guy who can forge your swords into something better, somehow your life gets more...enriched, I guess, for knowing that person.

-- Adol

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[booyaka_boom]

You're right. We have to think about the awesome people that we get to meet along the way, and not just focus on the bad times. Like, right now, I'm glad that I know you, even if we've never met, cause this has made me feel better! :)