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piratejournal2014-03-07 06:24 pm
[audio - written] Selphie's Sad Times
*The journal starts off first with a breath, like someone is about to say something really important, but difficult to say. But instead of words, there's just a soft, slow sigh. Talking about this really isn't going to be easy, so she promptly decides to write things down instead. She writes very carefully, not committing to putting the words down until she's got them straight in her head, which is unusual for Selphie*
My whole life, I've never known my parents. They died when I was very young, it seemed, and recently I've gained back some memories of the orphanage I used to live in. I didn't know what they looked like, what they did, what kind of people they were. In a way, I think I accepted that. I was never adopted, and I was sent to live at a military school. That, for me, was always that. Of course I wondered. Of course I imagined they'd come back. But what I never imagined, was meeting someone here who does have memories of my parents.
These past couple of months, it's like my whole world has been flipped upside down, and I'm not even in my home world. Since the new year, one thing after another, and another. Sometimes it's just hard to know what to think anymore. It's not just this place, but the people too. I've always been a think-on-your-feet, live-in-the-moment type girl, but until recently, I don't think I ever really appreciated just how quickly everything can completely change, swept from beneath your feet, dumped on you from a great height.
Now that I've written this much, I'm not really sure what it is I wanted to say. I suppose, just that, even though this world isn't home, there's no underestimating what might happen, and how the people we meet here might affect us.
Just keep happy, everyone.
Just keep doing the things that make you smile.
*Then the journal entry finishes. There's not the usual signing of her name, not the usual message of love and peace, nor a scribbled love heart, or a smiley face. But she does go back to underline that last line, if even for her own sake than anyone else's*
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[Grinning, Chandra pours even more of the warming drink.]
Hopefully he won't though. He's a real dick at times. And never in a good way.
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Huh. That's a shame. I'm just so...fed up of dicks right now. I mean, well, not like, actual dicks, though, I don't even know if I'm fed up with them... *Seriously, Selphie usually talks more than necessary but seems the drink still has an effect on what she's saying*
But I mean, those guys, that think they are so so awesome, and that all the girls in all the world should love them, and they make sure that the girl that loves them the most feels like shit for not being good enough for them. That kinda dick. I don't want anymore of that.
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[She can't help but grin, listening to this.]
Those are the kinda guys you set on fucking fire and walk away from. They're good for a night of fun once in a while, but only if you make sure they know you are the one in charge.
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He's pretty much made of fire...and a night - that was the furthest thing from his mind...
*She mumbles this into her glass before taking another, bigger, gulp*
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Well, then that's his fucking loss, avoiding a fun time with you. Cute little thing like you...man, what the fuck was he thinking? Anyone with real balls would be all over you like white on rice.
[She snorts]
And if he's made of fire, I could totally turn him inside out for you.
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*But she stops in whatever it was she was going to say next, apparently quite shocked, or at least very surprised, with Chandra's analogy*
All over me like -
*And now she's blushing as she drinks some, but she raises her eyebrows in warning at Chandra*
Nu uh. It's okay. He's best just left...doing..whatever it is. Not like he's gonna be bothering me anytime soon or anything...
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Alright, if you say so. But you say the word if he does, kay?
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Mmhmm.
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Don't blush, cutie. I'm serious.
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*Her blush was mostly gone. Not that she was a prude - far from it - but no one had ever much suggested that she might have much possibility of a sex life*
Anyway, enough about me! You got your eye on anybody round here?
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Anybody? Hah...how about almost everybody. Seriously not sure I could pick a favorite.
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*Selphie shifts in her chair, lifting her legs to tuck beneath her, looking very interested in what Chandra might have to say*
Like who? Who do you like better than others?
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[She grins.]
Roxas, Riku, and Kairi are way too young for me. And Yuuki's a vampire, so he's out. And...I guess maybe it's just me, but Namur and Nami are fish people, so...not them.
The rest of you that I've met? Totally hot. In a not...literal sense. I...think I'm using that expression right, too.
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Mhm. Namur is really nice, but yeah...a fish dude.
But yeah, you're right! This is a totally hot crew! So.. there's no one in particular I should try setting you up with?
*She smirks a little, giving a playful wink*
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[Chandra winks back playfully, nudging Selphie with her shoulder.]
Since you put it that way, sweet stuff, I'd almost say you...but...mmm, it's such a hard choice. Who do you think would be best? I don't wanna choose.
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Hmm... Well, what about Ace? Or...Asami?
*Not that she knows the sexual preference of many people in the crew...*
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[She laughs a bit, and pats Selphie again.]
And Asami? I...got the feeling she might be more interested in her pal from home.
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*Selphie giggles as she takes another drink and smiles at Chandra*
Aww that's sweet! I figure Asami's way too attractive not to be scooped up by someone!
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[And then she pours drink number 3]
And you're right. Asami is really good looking. So's Korra, in a dark skinned kinda way. I mean, she's got that whole warrior-lady thing going on.
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He really is. And he's real good fun too.
*Taking another long drink, Selphie nods her head*
Korra is. That's really cool. The guys and girls here are spoiled for choice!
What about...Aya? Or...Logan?
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[Gulp!]
Aya...kinda not my type. Not bad looking, but not really the kinda guy I'd be into. And Logan's a bit to...I'm not sure. Gruff? Fuzzy? Gruff and Fuzzy?
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*Though, Selphie doesn't feel like one of those who had any choice. She doesn't feel that anyone would be interested, especially after that nasty break up with Ikki*
Hmm? Why not? Aya's a really good guy. He's sweet, and fun, and a real good swordsman too. And yeah, looking at him is nice too.
*She laughs though at mention of Logan being gruff and fuzzy*
Really? Ya think so? He's just a big cutie pie, really. Lethal, but a sweetie nonetheless.
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[Chandra can't help but giggle.]
And yeah, Logan's okay, but...compared to Ace? Or Thatch? Or hah, any of the ladies.
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*Selphie thinks about this for a moment, and thinks that Chandra is probably right. She shrugs a shoulder, making a mental note that he's too good for her and could probably be removed from her list of possibilities, which seems to be rapidly dwindling by the minute*
Maybe.
So...Ace or Thatch it is, huh?
*Selphie giggles as she drains more of her glass*
Thatch is...better now. I think he likes me more than he used to. I think he thought I was a waste of space or something. But wow, he's way too tall for me! But hey - maybe you could date both! A triangle date, you could call it!
*And thinking of Thatch, she glances carefully to Chandra*
He's gonna take me to a brothel, you know!
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And...then...of course, she hears what Thatch is planning, she's invariably got a mouthful of liquor in her mouth.
That is now spittaked all over the wall.]
A brothel! What?! You?!
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