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[audio - written] Selphie's Sad Times

*The journal starts off first with a breath, like someone is about to say something really important, but difficult to say. But instead of words, there's just a soft, slow sigh. Talking about this really isn't going to be easy, so she promptly decides to write things down instead. She writes very carefully, not committing to putting the words down until she's got them straight in her head, which is unusual for Selphie*

My whole life, I've never known my parents. They died when I was very young, it seemed, and recently I've gained back some memories of the orphanage I used to live in. I didn't know what they looked like, what they did, what kind of people they were. In a way, I think I accepted that. I was never adopted, and I was sent to live at a military school. That, for me, was always that. Of course I wondered. Of course I imagined they'd come back. But what I never imagined, was meeting someone here who does have memories of my parents.

These past couple of months, it's like my whole world has been flipped upside down, and I'm not even in my home world. Since the new year, one thing after another, and another. Sometimes it's just hard to know what to think anymore. It's not just this place, but the people too. I've always been a think-on-your-feet, live-in-the-moment type girl, but until recently, I don't think I ever really appreciated just how quickly everything can completely change, swept from beneath your feet, dumped on you from a great height.

Now that I've written this much, I'm not really sure what it is I wanted to say. I suppose, just that, even though this world isn't home, there's no underestimating what might happen, and how the people we meet here might affect us.

Just keep happy, everyone.

Just keep doing the things that make you smile.

*Then the journal entry finishes. There's not the usual signing of her name, not the usual message of love and peace, nor a scribbled love heart, or a smiley face. But she does go back to underline that last line, if even for her own sake than anyone else's*

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[Chandra reaches out to Selphie's back, rubbing it gently.]

Don't blush, cutie. I'm serious.

Yeah, I'm okay.

*Her blush was mostly gone. Not that she was a prude - far from it - but no one had ever much suggested that she might have much possibility of a sex life*

Anyway, enough about me! You got your eye on anybody round here?

[Chandra let out a little laugh at that, hand coming up to her chest in mock offense.]

Anybody? Hah...how about almost everybody. Seriously not sure I could pick a favorite.

Seriously?

*Selphie shifts in her chair, lifting her legs to tuck beneath her, looking very interested in what Chandra might have to say*

Like who? Who do you like better than others?

Well...okay...so...

[She grins.]

Roxas, Riku, and Kairi are way too young for me. And Yuuki's a vampire, so he's out. And...I guess maybe it's just me, but Namur and Nami are fish people, so...not them.

The rest of you that I've met? Totally hot. In a not...literal sense. I...think I'm using that expression right, too.

*Selphie nods her head in agreement*

Mhm. Namur is really nice, but yeah...a fish dude.

But yeah, you're right! This is a totally hot crew! So.. there's no one in particular I should try setting you up with?

*She smirks a little, giving a playful wink*

Oh, well...

[Chandra winks back playfully, nudging Selphie with her shoulder.]

Since you put it that way, sweet stuff, I'd almost say you...but...mmm, it's such a hard choice. Who do you think would be best? I don't wanna choose.

*Despite another slight blush, Selphie giggles and shakes her head. Still, she is rather flattered at being someone's choice*

Hmm... Well, what about Ace? Or...Asami?

*Not that she knows the sexual preference of many people in the crew...*

Ace? Y'think the captain would be interested in a gal like me?

[She laughs a bit, and pats Selphie again.]

And Asami? I...got the feeling she might be more interested in her pal from home.

Well, why not? I think he's a real romantic at heart... and the two of you together would be so hot. I mean, not just the whole fire thing, but you'd be the best looking couple! And you could go drink together, then set stuff on fire!

*Selphie giggles as she takes another drink and smiles at Chandra*

Aww that's sweet! I figure Asami's way too attractive not to be scooped up by someone!

Maybe...[Chandra taps her chin thoughtfully] I mean...he's pretty good looking and I bet he might just be able to put up with me.

[And then she pours drink number 3]

And you're right. Asami is really good looking. So's Korra, in a dark skinned kinda way. I mean, she's got that whole warrior-lady thing going on.

*Nodding in agreement, Selphie pours herself another drink, though she's pretty sure that she's on her fourth*

He really is. And he's real good fun too.

*Taking another long drink, Selphie nods her head*

Korra is. That's really cool. The guys and girls here are spoiled for choice!

What about...Aya? Or...Logan?

They kinda are, aren't they?

[Gulp!]

Aya...kinda not my type. Not bad looking, but not really the kinda guy I'd be into. And Logan's a bit to...I'm not sure. Gruff? Fuzzy? Gruff and Fuzzy?

Mhmm... They are.

*Though, Selphie doesn't feel like one of those who had any choice. She doesn't feel that anyone would be interested, especially after that nasty break up with Ikki*

Hmm? Why not? Aya's a really good guy. He's sweet, and fun, and a real good swordsman too. And yeah, looking at him is nice too.

*She laughs though at mention of Logan being gruff and fuzzy*

Really? Ya think so? He's just a big cutie pie, really. Lethal, but a sweetie nonetheless.

Mmm, something tells me he might be a bit too proper for me, sweetie.

[Chandra can't help but giggle.]

And yeah, Logan's okay, but...compared to Ace? Or Thatch? Or hah, any of the ladies.

Proper?

*Selphie thinks about this for a moment, and thinks that Chandra is probably right. She shrugs a shoulder, making a mental note that he's too good for her and could probably be removed from her list of possibilities, which seems to be rapidly dwindling by the minute*

Maybe.

So...Ace or Thatch it is, huh?

*Selphie giggles as she drains more of her glass*

Thatch is...better now. I think he likes me more than he used to. I think he thought I was a waste of space or something. But wow, he's way too tall for me! But hey - maybe you could date both! A triangle date, you could call it!

*And thinking of Thatch, she glances carefully to Chandra*

He's gonna take me to a brothel, you know!

[Chandra's nodding along right to the end, already thinking about that whole thing. She'd definitely talked to Thatch, and...they'd definitely had a moment and connected. But same for Ace, and Ace was way, way more fun to tease. He just reacted so freaking well.

And...then...of course, she hears what Thatch is planning, she's invariably got a mouthful of liquor in her mouth.

That is now spittaked all over the wall.]

A brothel! What?! You?!

*But, at this stage, Selphie doesn't appear at all bothered by this, and simly refills Chandra's glass to make up for what she's lost*

Yup! In a couple of weeks! He did promise. I think he thought he wouldn't have to.

*But at that she laughs, quite clearly at herself*

Anywaaay, he said he'd take me, cause there are men there too, for women to...hang out with. Like - what was it you said? Oh yeah, white on rice!

*All spoken about like it was a trip to the supermarket*

[Chandra drains the entire glass in one gulp and pours another. Because that was the last thing she'd expected to hear.]

Yes, though...uh...what is it you want these men to do to you, Cutie? I mean, a brothel's not really about hanging out. But...it is a bit like white on rice, if you want that.

[And...probably more.]

Well, I haven't decided exactly...

*Because, let's face it, there are times when Selphie is definitely sure white on rice is what she wants. But actually, mostly she thinks she might just like some attention, cuddles and sweet nothings*

But, everyone else who goes there seems to have a good time, so why shouldn't I?

*Definitely not pouting*

Well, y'know...

[Chandra takes a sip, slowing down a bit.]

I'm not saying you shouldn't go have a good time. Far from it. I'm just staying why pay for it. Next time we make port, why don't you come out to the bar with me? That way we can have a good time together, find you a nice guy who'll be happy to do whatever you like...and it won't cost you a dime?

Paying for it takes a lot of the fun out of it, y'know.

*If it came to it, Selphie would be certain that doing that would get her nowhere, and that being out anywhere with Chandra would surely see her fail. She knows there's no hope for her with someone like Chandra around. But just now she's rather tipsy, so none of that even enters her thoughts, for now*

Yes! That's an awesome idea! There will be this guy there, and he'll be so hot to look at, but also... he'll be really wellspoken, and polite. And the moment he sees me he'll be totally amazed by me, and he'll want nothing more right then than to make me happy! So he'll buy me drinks, and he'll make me laugh, and he'll tell me how gorgeous I am. And he'll kiss me like I'm the most stunning girl he's ever met. And after all if that, he'll look so happy, and he won't be disgusted at me not one tiny bit. In fact, he'll kiss me again, in the rain, and it'll be totally hot and romantic!

[And Chandra would make sure that totally didn't happen. She's played wing-girl before. And...she knows not everyone's into people like her. She doesn't exactly play well with high society, after all. She wraps an arm around Selphie, like a big sister almost, and gestures with her drink.]

That's exactly how it'll go! Believe me, we'll go out and have a blast, maybe find a pair of brothers. And we'll have a hot, amazing evening together, and when it's time to go, we can sail away and leave them with happy memories, and maybe some underwear.

[And she totally means for that to happen now.]

*Grinning, Selphie wraps her arm around Chandra in a similar way*

Yes! The hottest brothers ever! Mine should have really nice hair too, longish! And he'll smell so good! Probably he'll fall desperately in love with me, and he'll spend his entire life dreaming of me. I'll ruin love for him - cause no one will make him feel the way that I did!

*Yup, definitely spent too long reading romance stories*

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