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No, I'm not going to do anything else to you. My hand still hurts.

[It's part of why dealing with his own vampirism is such a sore point. He's had a real taste of what they can do.]

It's because when I got rescued, I bit a few people in the process. I've had a lot more blood then I normally do.

Good!

*And she allows herself a little smile of triumph*

Oh... I see. Well, I'm glad that something good came out of... all of that.

*She sighs a little awkwardly - she hadn't seen any good from her point of the events*

It wasn't that good. I kind of lost control, but Riku grounded me. I am grateful for that.

[He exhales, closing his eyes a moment.]

I could have killed one of them. Whatever those chains were, were suppressing me and snapping out of it was...an experience.

I wish I'd been strong enough to fight back... but... things just didn't work out that way.

*Mostly because she'd been very close to her own death*

I'm glad Riku was there to help you. And I'm sorry I couldn't.

Don't feel bad about that Selphie. We couldn't really know what we were in for. I should have been able to resist myself, but I was just as weak as I've always been.

[His fingers curl into fists and he looks down.]

I am fortunate enough that I can heal from something like that physically, with little time or effort. Especially once I bit someone. It's not like that for you.

[After a pause he reaches out and touches her arm gently.]

As scary as my illusion was, you know I'll never hurt you right?

But that's kinda why we offer to let you feed too. Doesn't matter if you think you can do without. What if something like that happens again? You need to be as strong as you can be.

*She watches as he looks down, and though maybe he can't see it, she shakes her head - her wrists are still pink and healing, and the deep cuts on her leg will probably scar. She blinks when he touches her arm - as light as it is, she's surprised. But in answer she launches herself closer to him and hugs him tightly*

[Natsuno is very surprised when she hugs him. For one thing, she hasn't really done that to him before, and for another he just scared the crap out of her. It takes a moment for his mind to catch up.]

I...I um...okay?

[People just don't go around hugging him and he's not entirely sure what he should do. It's different from Tohru throwing his arm around him or the light roughhousing they used to engage in. He brings a hand up and places it on her head.]

*Selphie just giggles as she gives him another squeeze, and she looks up at him with a bright smile*

Yuuki! You look like you've never had a hug before!

*But she's teasing really, and she chuckles when he puts a hand on her head*

[Natsuno's eyes are still a little wide, but he's not entirely sure what to do. He shakes his head a bit.]

Not like this, I mean, it's customary not to really touch people in my country. Tohru-chan put his arm around me sometimes, but...that's not really normal.

Oops! Well, I guess we ruined that custom!

*She smirks, giving Natsuno a coy look and batting her eyelashes at him*

Don't worry, Yuuki, I'm not flirting with you.

I-I didn't say you were! I mean...it's okay I guess.

[Other people's customs are pretty strange anyway, moreso if he's being hugged.]

*And she just continues with blinking her eyelashes at him, hugging him a little tighter*

You mean, you ~want~ me to flirt with you, Yuuki?

What?! No!

[Natsuno is blushing pretty hard and he squirms a little.]

Maybe you could just...

[He gestures with his hand at the hugging.]

*And with that Selphie just bounces right back, keeping her limbs to herself, and at an actual reasonable distance. And then she bursts into laughter*

Yu - Yuuki, seriously. You could really upset a girl like that...

[Natsuno clears his throat a little and looks away.]

Girls do not want to hug me. Even Shimizu wouldn't have, I don't think. I'm not even sure why you hugged me.

[In fact, he's completely lost control over this conversation.]

Well, I know I wanted to hug you, otherwise I wouldn't have bothered. And aside from the fact of you being so adorable... Actually, that's all. You were being very sweet, and I thought it deserved a hug.

But hey - half the crew don't like it when I hug them so I don't see why it should be any different with you!

[He feels a little guilty at that and runs his hand through his hair.]

It isn't really about who's hugging me. It isn't you. It's just not something I am accustomed to.

I wasn't really trying to be sweet I just...I scared you and I'm sorry, and I don't want you to think I would do something to you. I wouldn't.

Well, I'll try not to be offended. But you should maybe hug some more people, just to get used to it. Lemme see... The Doctor gives nice hugs, Marco is very cuddly, don't go to Ace. No offense, but...it won't happen. Uhm, Ikki gives really, very nice hugs... And Riku. You could always practise with Riku...

*Of all the sly grins. Hope you like her hints and tips for crew hugs!*

Hey. It's okay. And anyway, you wouldn't hurt me, mostly cause you know I'd hunt you down and slap your wrists.

[Natsuno blinks at her.]

Why? I'm not sure what is with all the hugging. I mean, in Japan you really never hug anyone, not even family. Maybe it's too personal.

[Hug Riku? The thought stops his words for a moment as he scrambles to recover.]

I-I don't think any of them would like to ah, hug me, that'd be weird what with guys and all.

[He sighs a bit.]

Selphie, I can't fight at all. I am certain even if I did lose it, you could beat me up, if that makes you feel better.

*Selphie shrugs a little - physical affection is important to her, after all*

Well, hugs just feel nice. Didn't that feel good? My hugs are pretty awesome, you know. But it's just, to make someone feel nice, that's what they're for. This crew just mostly suck at realising that.

Hmm, I dunno. You might have a better chance of getting hugged than I have. I mean, there's only one person on this entire boat who hugged me first. Ya know, without me attacking them. So it's not like they're running riot looking for women to hug. So - yeah, I don't think it matters?

*She's not really sure where she's going with this, but her voice softens, trying to reassure him*

You don't have to fight. You've got these creepy tricks, so you don't have to. That's my job. Seriously, fighting is what I'm paid for back home. So yes, I could 100% beat you up if I wanted to. But I don't wanna hurt you either.

Edited 2013-12-08 22:19 (UTC)

[Natsuno isn't sure what to make of that.]

It wasn't unpleasant at any rate. I don't know about nice.

[It was awkward, is what it was.]

Why would I have a better chance? I doubt Riku or Ikki want to hug me, even Sora, I don't think so. I'm not sure why they would.

[He sighs a little.]

If I could fight, we could have gotten out of there, maybe. But I was as weak as anyone else and I got caught unaware.

Well, thanks. But every time you'll learn to love it more. Just you wait and see.

*She grins and winks at him, then looks thoughtful for a moment*

You never know when you might need a hug, if it makes you feel better. I hugged Riku when Sora died, and I think he needed that. Ikki - well, I thought he needed a hug but.. he's a trickier beast. So maybe warn him first. I think Sora would be fine with it too. But, if it's still too weird, don't worry about it too much.

*Selphie looks down at her boots and slowly shakes her head*

Yuuki, don't. I should have had the stength enough to get us all out, no trouble. But that didn't happen. That's what I was born and bred to do, and I couldn't. That wasn't your responsibility.

[Natsuno tilts his head and shrugs a bit.]

Maybe it would have been nice at a time like that, when someone dies, but it's not like that where I am.

[He wonders if Tohru's siblings would have liked that, or even if he would have appreciated it. At a time like that, instead he was fighting with Masao.]

Not really yours either, but we can both feel guilty about it. At least they came for us, and we're alive, right?

Okay, but don't worry, you can take hugging baby step by baby step!

*Selphie takes a deep breath and looks back up at him*

They shouldn't have had to! Just dragged them all in to get hurt...

I suppose I could.

[He scratches his head and looks a little puzzled at that. He's not sure why he needs to learn this kind of thing, but even his conversation with Riku made him realize that maybe things in Japan weren't the same as elsewhere. Natsuno honestly never thought about it.]

They were okay though. We're all okay now. Everyone's safe right? I feel bad Riku and Ace had to come save me, but it's better than being killed. I promised Riku I wouldn't die before he did.

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