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[It begins with a crash, the flutter of pages as the book clatters open on the floor. The unmistakable thud of something hard hitting wood, and the crack as it splinters in the keyblade's wake. The noise repeats itself again and again.]

No. No no no.

[He's infuriated because anger is the most comforting emotion he has, the one he is most familiar with. His voice cracks a little though as he makes a mess of his room. The sounds of his anger begin to slow, and it ends in one simple thud as he hits the ground, breathless. His voice comes through hoarse and worn out, full of sorrow.]

Lea's gone.

[The words spoken barely above a whisper.]

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Sounds 'bout right. 'S normal, did he tell y' that too? Even the not knowin' what t' do part. Shit, 's why I went off on my own for a bit. Lost Ace, then Haruta an' Logan an' a whole buncha other crew. All gone home. Had t' go figure myself out cuz I was gettin' tumbled 'round in the current an' I needed t' figure out if I was goin' up or down, y' know? Yer gonna be okay though.

I don't remember if he said that, but it is?

[That is actually reassuring.]

I wasn't ready for this though. I didn't...I wasn't ready to say goodbye to him. If I never see him again, this is it. That hurts so much. Going home isn't a guarantee I'll ever see him. If he never finds me...

Yep. Totally normal. Hear y' on the not bein' ready for it front, too. If Ace don't wind up comin' back here, I know I ain't ever gonna see him 'gain. 'S jus'. Whaleshit. Ain't a hell of a lot t' do once y' find yerself stuck in it but try t' swim through an' get it clear a yer gills fast as y' can. Some whales is bigger'n others though so if yer stream a whaleshit takes longer t' wade through that don't mean there's anythin' wrong either, catch me?

...Actually, yeah. I'm following you. Totally normal and if it takes time, that's okay. He said that too, I could take as long as I wanted. I just don't know how long that would be. I feel like my chest hurts. That feeling I get sometimes.

Lea always knows what to do. We didn't....we didn't expect this. He said we got this though. Everything. He remembers his promise. That has to be enough, right?

[He's rambling, but he doesn't care, he needs it.]

Ehhh inside shit's tricky business so 's hard t' say how much time y' need 'til yer there sometimes. But the hurt in yer chest ain't gonna be there always. Might get bits an' pieces a it every once in awhile but y' fill yer life with other stuff an' it'll drop back a li'l an' let y' live.

If he made a promise it damn well better be 'nuff.

It has to be enough, that's all I've got right now. I'm just really sad right now. Sad and really scared and just really...I'm not sure.

[He's having a hard time. Lea deciphers his emotions for him sometimes.]

I wish I knew what to do to feel better. I've kinda been sitting here with my cat doll.

A'ight... an' how's that helpin' y'?

[Namur is horrible with emotions unless he's around to smell them. But even then it's hard because people's minds go against their bodies so often. That doesn't mean he'll just leave a (former(?)) brother in the lurch.]

Like. Does jus' sittin' there with it make y' feel better?

I'm not sure. It might be. Lea gave it to me. He won it at the festival for me.

[He sucks in a sharp breath.]

I guess it's a way to feel closer to him but, really all I want is him here. I can't really move around a lot in here right now. I kinda trashed my room.

'Kay, well. Maybe take the cat with y' an' go get some water. Y' need t' drink shit an' move yer legs an' it'll get y' outta the trash.

I'll clean it up later when I feel better.

[There's a pause.]

Uh, Namur, I don't need to drink water. At least, I don't think so.

.... oh.

Well 's somethin' t' do 'til y' feel like cleanin' up. Don't hurt y', does it?

It doesn't hurt.

[He agrees and there's some shuffling as he hauls himself out of his room. He hasn't left it in awhile.]

I haven't been feeling like eating or anything lately.

Might be kinda nice t' see some a yer crew anyway, even if y' don't wanna eat an' y' ain't gotta. Galleys usually got someone hangin' 'round. 'S good t' jus' be there so people can offer t' help, catch me? Never know what's gonna wind up helpin' the most.

Do you think some of them could help me? If I knew what would help that would be good, but I can't figure that out right now. For a long time I was just curling up with Lea when I got upset. I wish I'd thought of this.

I'm trying to remember what my plan was when I left him behind that time. What I was going to do without him. I can't remember though.

[The sound of the door opening as he enters the galley]

You...when you were hurting, you went somewhere else right? Did that help?

Waited 'til I wasn't hurtin' so much no more an' was down t' jus' bein' confused as all hell, but yeah. Know how t' sail on yer own, we berthed one a the Dippers out on Aquatica Paradise. Betcha Marco'd let y' use it if y' wanted.

He probably would, 'cause he loves me.

[That thought does make him smile, Namur can probably hear it.]

I don't know how to sail though. Nothing about it, actually. I think Marco offered to teach me once. I can mop the deck though.

...It's probably not the kind of thing I can just figure out.

Yeah, no, it ain't. Sheheheh shit. Well there's other ways a gettin' out on yer own for a bit too if y' need. 'S jus' one way a doin' it, sure y' can find ways a yer own, too.

I might come see Marco later. Then...then I don't know. I could go to an island okay I guess.

I'm kinda...

I don't know. Sad. Tired. I don't really want to do anything right now.

Well y' made it t' the galley, right? Jus' hang out there for awhile 'til y' feel like goin' somewhere else. 'S somethin' at least.

Yeah I did. I guess that's as good an idea as any. Otherwise I'd just be in my room right?

[The sound of a chair pulling back and Roxas sitting in it.]

Yep. An' y' already know there ain't nothin' doin' in there.

[A pause.]

Hope y' get feelin' better soon, eh?

Thanks a lot Namur.

[Later, he will really appreciate this.]

Peace out, li'l bro.

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