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You know, it really sucks when people disappear... One of my best friends is gone and... it hurts. She was real important to me. I've been here for more than a year now, and there are people here that I'd do anything for. So of course it stings when they're gone. But...

...but instead of just being sad all the time, I think this means that we should always be grateful for the people that we do have, all the awesome friends that are still with us. If anything, we should keep them as close as we can, have as much fun as we can. No one knows what's gonna happen tomorrow.

So get together with the people you care about the most, and the ones you love the most. Make sure they know just how much they mean to you.

Have fun, everyone!

[Private to Spades]

Hey guys - wanna hang out? I'm up on deck if you wanna join in - I've got drinks and candy, and I've brought my guitar too! See ya soon!

*Of course she knows that she's not the only Spade that will be hurting with Chandra's disappearance. But instead of wallowing or running away, Selphie has chosen the happier option. Out on deck, Selphie has dragged her own duvet and pillows, and Chandra's too. There are a few bottles of various alcohols (including one very bright green one, and a very bright pink one - obviously Selphie's own choices), and there was a small spread of her own personal supply of candy. Selphie sat on a pillow, waiting to see if anyone would come along to keep her company, strumming her guitar and singing softly*

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*Selphie's frowning slightly on the other side because she had no clue what the hell he's on about*

..I see. Guess you'll just have to be really sorry.

What island are you on anyway?

[That isn't all that uncommon, Roxas' ability to retell stories is somewhat lacking.]

I'll try. Kinda weird being a girl. Everything is all weird and uncomfortable. [That could be taken the wrong way, Lea already gave him shit for what he said in the first place.] Uh, not that girls are weird or anything, I'm just not supposed to be one.

Hang on, I'll find out!

[He doesn't remember what it's called but an easy inquiry and she can hear his footsteps as he comes back.] We think it's called Turvey Top.

You're right - being a girl isn't weird. But it is weird being in a body you're not supposed to be in. I sure didn't like being a guy. Not one bit.

..huh. Turvey Top. At least I won't have to worry about being turned into a girl if I ever go there.

[He exhales, relieved.]

Right? It's really weird to me! I'm not sure I like it much. I walk funny and everything fits wrong and I had to ask Lea how to use the bathroom.

[He's blushing, but she can't see it. She might be able to hear the embarrassment in his voice though.]

My keyblade feels kind of heavy. I never noticed before.

[He thinks about that.]

I guess not, but the old lady could do something else to you. If you meet one here, I guess you should try not to get mad.

Well, I had pretty much the same problem when I was stuck in Lea's body.

*And she still doesn't sound so pleased about it*

Hey - being a girl shouldn't make you weak! Unless she turned you into a weak girl!

*Though she does know how very heavy that keyblade actually is*

I don't make a habit of getting mad at old ladies, so it should be okay.

[At least when he traded bodies it was with another guy and it was awkward enough. This is a totally different scale of weird.]

I don't think I'm a weak girl, I just...I don't know. Everything feels kind of different. I can lift it and hold it okay, I just never noticed how it felt, not really. Or maybe I had it in my left arm...I can't remember now. [He clicks his tongue, completely annoyed with himself.] Do you think your arm can get weak if it's been in a sling for awhile?

[After a moment, he makes a thoughtful noise.]

Hey, Selphie, you're a girl! If I can't get her to change me back how do I get a bra? Lea said I probably need one and I don't know how to get one. I don't think he does either.

Yes, you arm might just be weaker. So I guess if you're gonna be stuck as a girl you should probably think about training up - it'd be bad if you couldn't use your keyblade!

*She is so staring at her journal right now. Really, what the hell, Roxas?*

Uh - where do you get anything? You go to a store for one! I dunno how big your boobs are, but you probably shouldn't do too much running until you get one. Just find a store that sells them, and then you have to ask a lady to measure them for you so that you get the right one.

*All the very serious, sisterly advice right here*

I think I'd have to practice anyway, moving around is already weird on its own.

[It's a very important question! Lea told him to find a girl to ask!]

Uh, yeah, I'm not really sure how big they are either. I don't know how to tell.

[It's not like he's really noticed, actually.]

Big enough, probably. I mean, it's a little heavy on my chest. Then I have to do something about my hair.

[Cut it off, probably, his hair was crazy enough when it was short. Long it just looks like a mess to him.]

Well, you can usually tell by how heavy they are. And if they bounce and hurt when you run. That's basically the worst thing - and that's why you'll need a bra.

*Suddenly, this is all too hilarious for Selphie, and bursts out laughing*

Maybe you can go lingerie shopping with Lea and pick out something cute and frilly!

[Roxas blinks a bit. He doesn't mind her laughing, it could be funny if it wasn't happening to him, although Lea didn't laugh, mostly he was freaked out at first.]

I don't think Lea knows anything about how to help. He tried to guess I think, but even touching them he didn't know.

[He sighs a bit.]

I have to get the ink off me first. I lost at cards and Lea put ink all over me. We played um...

[What was that game again?]

The card game and if you lost you had to take clothes off. He beat me anyway.

Urgh...

*Selphie makes a noise and pulls a face at her journal, not that Roxas can see. The idea of Lea touching Roxas' boobs kinda weirds her out a bit. Then with mention of taking clothes off*

Roxas, the whole world doesn't need to know about your sex life, you know!

[Roxas sounds completely bewildered.]

What sex thing?

[Lea was teaching him to play strip poker. Which he lost, terribly.]

I don't mean actual sex sex just - all this stripping and kissing and cuddling you do with Lea. You're supposed to keep that sorta stuff kinda private, you know?

Wait, who told you I kissed him?! Did I say that? He's going to kill me!

[Apparently some things are indeed private.]

I'm pretty sure you did... Sometime... Once...

*Maybe he'd been talking naively or something before, but still*

But yeah... Getting naked with Lea is a private thing too, you know.

He usually tells me when it's private.

[Muttering under his breath.]

He's just going to kill me.

What? Why would he kill you?

*Selphie sounds far less than impressed about that*

Because I said I would keep quiet about the kissing thing, but I didn't.

[Clearly, because Selphie knew about it and Lea is probably not going to be impressed with him. He lets out a frustrated whine.]

What - you think I'm gonna go around telling people? I'm not gonna go telling Lea, that's for sure!

*Yeahh...still not happy with him. She sighs, feeling pretty sorry for Roxas*

Look, you need to stop being so scared of him. It's not good for you.

No, I don't think that. I don't think you'd tell people, I just mean I did.

[He's annoyed with himself. It's a feeling that's been increasing as of late. But when she continues his tone changes to more of a confused tone.]

I'm not scared of him. I just...I don't want to disappoint him. I think I do that a lot sometimes.

But so what? I mean - it's pretty obvious something is going on with you and Lea...

*Selphie isn't really understanding this, but she sighs at the last thing he says*

Yeah, well, people disappoint each other. And screw him - I bet you don't disappoint him nearly as much as you think!

It is? Oh, but I don't think Lea really wants people to know about it! Something about people not liking him for it...I don't really remember everything he said.

[He sighs softly, thinking about it.]

I don't know. I hope not. I'm trying not to.

Well, Lea's stupid. Stupid because it's obvious, and stupid if he thinks you're a disappointment.

*Clearly her estimations of Lea are still very low*

So don't worry about it, okay?

I didn't know it was obvious. The Captain was surprised.

I don't think he thinks that. He gets mad at me when I say I'm stupid or whatever. I just...it's complicated and when I forget stuff I feel so mad now. At me, I mean.

[He's feeling a little self conscious as of late.]

I try not to worry but it's hard. Lea thinks if I could just join Sora, my head will get straightened out.

What the hell?

But you're not Sora - you're Roxas. On your own.

*Yeah, she's ignored all that other stuff - she thinks that Lea is bad for Roxas, but it's not her place to say*

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