piratejournal | [voice, private to Dave Strider] backdated to July 8th

[It's just weird. If it weren't for his sister Dave would've just brushed it off. Everyone feels lonely sometimes. It's a be more ironic for him though. He used to be surrounded by people who adore him. He wasn't supposed to feel alone.]

Nah, you're already my friend, bro. I don't know everything about you, but you've been there for me. That's what matters.

[though Dave couldn't see it, Thash smiled to himself a bit. It was nice to know Dave felt that way, even though they hadn't known each other all that long yet. Well, if they were friends, that meant he could mess with him a little to cheer him up right?]

Yeah, I'm here for you. But since we're such buddies maybe I should come bug you more often. Hang out in your room, eat your food, talk about guy stuff... Friends do that right?

[he was mostly trying to be funny and get a laugh out of Dave, but his sense of humor was pretty dry so he didn't know if it would work...hopefully it'd get him to smile at least]

You can hang out in my room, but I don't have food in here. I don't eat. I absorb nutrients through osmosis.

[Seriously though, he doesn't keep food in there. He just makes random trips into the kitchen. Dave doesn't eat much to begin with.]

We can talk about all of the guy stuff though. Sports, women, beer, fast cars...

[Thash hadn't been expecting Dave to take him seriously, but now that he thought about it, it would be fun to go hang out with him and talk about stuff, especially when Dave is feeling down]

[he laughed a bit about Dave's comment about food...he doesn't know what osmosis is but it sounds funny]

Hahah...right. That's fine, I was kidding. I don't keep food in my room either, that's a good way to attract rats.

It'd be cool to hang out and talk sometime though. Next time we're on an island and you're feeling crappy in your room I'll come bug you. Or any time really, just let me know.

[he's not sure what cars are or what about them is fast. But Dave's use of words he doesn't know doesn't discourage him- he just figures he'll learn a lot from talking to the guy]

I don't think we have any cats to kill them either. Shit, do you think this is like... the era of the black plague? I hope we don't have any rats.

[He isn't really as worried about it as he sounds though. Dave hasn't seen any rats since he got here. The first mate usually keeps things pretty clean.]

You can come bug me right now. Seriously. Not like I've got anything better to do but sit here and talk your ear off. You might regret it though. Like, I don't know how sturdy shark ears are compared to human ears but I'm pretty sure my monologues have left people bleeding before.

[He's just kidding. But seriously, Dave will talk forever as long as someone's there to listen.]

[Thash has a lot of patience with listening, so thats just fine. He's just grateful to have people to talk to and listen to now. He's sick of living by himself and having no one around to interact with in a friendly way]

Well, alright, I might as well.

[so he did. He went and hung out with Dave and talked a little while, trying to distract him from missing Grell. Later on, a couple of days after they reunite with Grell, Thash decided to come 'bug' him again. He was sure Dave must be happier now that they've got Grell back but still hadn't seen him come out onto the island much besides to greet her. He just wanted to make sure he's doing ok and chat a bit. He knocked on his door lightly]

'Ey Captain Strider, you in there?

[hed keep calling him than unless asked otherwise. He thought it was kind of funny at this point, more like a humorous nickname than a title]

[It doesn't really count as "bugging" him. Dave is more than happy to talk to Thash any time. In fact, it's probably better for him if people interrupt his solitude every now and then. He is a lot happier now that Grell's back though, and it shows. Even the tone of his voice sounds more upbeat.]

Yeah, I'm here. Come in.

[The door is open. Thash should be able to walk in without any trouble.]

[Thash came in with a smile, glad to hear Dave's voice with a happy tone.]

Hey! How's it goin'? Nice to see you in a good mood, heh... I had a feeling Grell would be back

Okay, you win this time. But I swear most of the people I knew who disappeared stayed gone.

[Dave says it with a smile on his face. He's happy to be wrong for once.]

Don't worry, I believe ya. Just in the short time I've been here I've heard stories of people disappearing without explanation... like that lady and demon guy we had on our crew. At this point, I don't think they're coming back.

[He just mentioned it as an observation though; his voice not implying any particular concern]

It does make me wonder what that Davy Jones guy is playing at... but whatever, that's not something we can figure out by talking about it here. I'm more interested in you and Grell... [He smirked a bit] since you said it's a guy thing to talk about women and all. Is she your girlfriend now?

Wow, rude. You can't just go snooping into someone else's love life.

[It's not like Dave actually minds, though he hates being put on the spot about it. He's awkward when it comes to relationships.]

Whatever you want to call it. We're going steady and everything. We are about as monogamous as Robin Thicke and Paula Patton, except without Blurred Lines, cheating, or the divorce.

[he blinked a few times, his head titling. Whoops...he'd been surprised how close Dave had implied they were before, but apparently they weren't good enough buddies to talk about stuff like that]

Uh...my bad. You don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to. You're right, it was nosy....

[also Dave, as awkward as you are, you're probably not as bad as a shark guy who's only ever had one girlfriend his entire life before coming here. Thash is awkward to the max. But he'd though even hard subjects might be fun to talk about with Dave...oh well]

That's....great to hear though? I dunno who those people are haha but steady's a good thing in my opinion. [yeah...steady without that other stuff of course]

[Thash looks confused. Oh well. That's the price Dave pays for being awesome. Some people just don't get the irony.]

No, it's cool. I was just playing with you, bro.

[And since he doesn't want to explain the references he just made he's just going to keep making weird metaphors.]

We are as steady as a brick house. As committed as Ben Stiller and Owen Wilson were to their comdey routines. She's my forever girl.

Oh, ok... [so he was kidding? Wow, Thash knew he was bad at reading social signals but it's especially hard with Dave. Well, maybe the longer he spends wth him, the better he'll get at it]

[again, he could only laugh and shake his head a bit in clueless amusement at all those names Dave kept throwing out. They must be very famous people where he's from]

Steady and committed forever huh? That's awesome... I'm jealous, heh. Commitment in a relationship is huge for me, I've found. Sometimes I feel like I expect too much, though.

[It can be difficult to tell what Dave means, even for people who've known him his entire life.]

Something like that.

[He doesn't have any idea how long their relationship will last. Most of his haven't lasted very long. Dave cares for Grell a lot more than most of the people he's dated though. He wants it to last.]

What do you expect?

Well...I guess it's more of a stubborn hope than an expectation. Honestly what I've always expected Is that I'd stay single, hahah... Not a lot of women look my way.

But what I hope for is....well.... [he scratched the back of his head, embarrassed] to marry I guess. Or 'mate for life' as some call it. To have one woman to grow old with....to be loyal to and who will be loyal to me. And, y'know....if she wants 'em, kids would be cool eventually.

...I wonder that's expecting a lot though, especially for a guy like me. I wonder if I should settle for something else...

[although he hadn't gone into detail, it almost sounded like he was currently in a position to accept something of that nature]

I hear you. Never thought I would be the type to settle down.

[Though in his case it isn't because women don't look his way. Plenty of them did, but most of them only wanted him for his fame and money. It's just one of the burdens he has to bare because he's a celebrity.]

That's a good goal and I don't think you should settle for anything else. If you know what you want then go find it. You won't be happy if you settle for anything less.

[he looked at Dave a moment, then nodded slowly] ...I guess you're right. As dumb as it is for me to pass up anything, I think I wouldn't be happy if I didn't go for that goal.

[although he looked like some concern was still on his mind]

What if um...theoretically, your goals didn't match up with your partners'? And you have a hard time making them happy while keeping to your own goal? Is there a way for that to work? Or is it just doomed to end...

It's impossible to have all the same goals as someone else because we're all different. So I don't think it's doomed. It's better to try to work things out. Maybe you can if the other person will compromise with you. Some people don't want to though.

[It's not like Dave can talk. He's never had a lasting relationship.]

It's doomed if someone gives up. You gotta have two people to make a relationship work. One can't do it alone.

[his expression turns gradually hopeful at Dave's words. Being the pessimist that he was, he hadn't been expecting to hear that...he'd been expecting to hear it was pointless to try to work through things. But with the scant experience he had in this department, he was ready to believe Dave despite the unexpectedness of what he said]

Really? Then I guess as long as both sides are willing to compromise a little, things can work...no way are we gonna give up easily.

....um, theoretically.

[pff, at this point he's fooling himself. Dave has probably picked up on the fact that he's in a relationship by now]

[Dave isn't the best at relationships, but he doesn't just give up on people. He usually sticks around long after other have given up on him, actually. He likes to believe that most relationships can work even though a lot of his haven't.]

Right. You gotta give in a little sometimes, but you shouldn't be the only one doing it 'cause that's bad. Relationships take a lot of work. They don't just happen.

[Thash's romantic life is the last thing on Dave's mind. He's pretty preoccupied with his own past and trying not to sound like an idiot.]

[He nodded thoughtfully, thinking that sounded reasonable. And he was right... already Thash had found it wasn't easy]

Yeah, guess you're right... it's worth it though, huh? You sound like you've had quite a few of them.

The thing about being a celebrity is that everyone wants to get in your pants. Sometimes it's hard to tell which ones care and which ones are just there for fortune and fame.

[And most of them were form the second group. It just happens.]

Oh... never thought about that. That's gotta suck. Well, that's a good thing about Grell I guess... she sure as heck doesn't seem like the type to care about that kinda stuff.

...Just how famous are you, anyway?

I don't think she has any idea how famous I was. Everybody knew my name. I was as big as Mel Gibson. Almost as hated too, even though I'm not a bigot.

[That gets him thinking though, because it's been different since he came here.]

Most people here don't have a clue, but maybe that's a good thing. I can go places without being mobbed, stalked, or followed by the paparazzi. I can hang out in public without bodyguards or an escort. Fuck, no one has even asked for my autograph.

I thought I would miss all that, but I don't. I just miss the people I used to care about.

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Time update to the 11th of Aug or so

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