Third message: Paying respects halfway across the universe. (Voice)

[doctor_ozaki]

...I want to do something for her.

[What is this? Is he actually using the journal to remark on his own thoughts and feelings? Seems that way, but there is more purpose to it than that. And he's finding it hard to speak so openly on a public server. So for a few moments he falls into silence and then there’s the sound of rustling.]

Someone so kind and openhearted never should have died in such a brutal way. And I would do anything to go back in time and change it, but I can't.

[He has to stop himself here before he say's too much. This isn't about him; it's about that kind mother.]

I don't feel like I have a right, but she deserves a proper farewell.

And I want to do something special, but I can't think of anything, it's not really something I'm used to.

So I guess what I'm asking is...How do you say goodbye to the dead in your world?

[And he stops the broadcast here. He’s not looking for pity, or for help. He just wants to give someone who has helped him through so much what she deserves. ]

Comments

[Voice]

[doctor_ozaki]

[He understood....nothing the man was singing.]

[Yeah, he'll just, ask about it later. You know, when the guy wasn't crazy.]

It sounds like you and your father where close. [Toshio was a little jealous about that. But mostly he was happy for the other.]

I wasn't really around when mine passed away.

[Written]

[fierybluebird]

[He writes back for now because it's harder to talk, and harder still to talk about that in particular without more emotion than he wants to deal with.]

My father taught me nearly everything I hold worth knowing.

He died in a war.

It was how he wanted: standing strong and protecting his family, but that doesn't always make it easier to accept.

You're right, we were very close though.

[He's too old to feel orphaned, and he's got too many brothers to look after to waste time with feeling sorry for himself, but it weighs on him always.]