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[The handwriting is a little sloppy, as if this was jotted down in a hurry.]

Hey Spades--

Found some stragglers. I'm bringing them back to the ship.

[Private to Sora:]

Heads up...one of them is Roxas.

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I wanted to meet him...

[Roxas repeats these words, pressing a palm to his forehead. That's right. He did want to meet Sora, didn't he? He was going after Sora when he met Riku. Why did he do that? Something doesn't feel right about that.]

I did. I did want to meet him. I don't know why. Something was drawing me to him. Before I met Namine...

[He murmurs to himself before flashing his eyes on Riku.]

You can't know that. I could meet him and then that's it.

[He swallows a lump in his throat at the idea. No one would want to just disappear, to be forgotten. It's a tougher thing to face then he'd thought. He's angry about it, he wants to be separate, and yet he also knows he'll never feel or be a whole person without Sora.

What did he want? That was a good question.]

I want...a heart. I want to go to the beach with Axel. Or Hayner, Pence and Olette, except I don't think that was real. I did think it was but now I'm not sure. I want to be less confused. I can't remember things. I know that. Axel's always telling me.

It won't be it. You already met up with Sora in our world. Months and months ago. Unless he's running around here as a Heartless again— [Which Riku seriously hopes is not the case.] —then he's already whole. You...you're from a different point in time.

[He says this confidently, trying to sound 100% sure on the matter.]

You won't disappear when you see him. There's no reason for you to. He doesn't need to have two Nobody halves.

[He doesn't comment on the Hayner, Pence, and Olette thing. No need to make things even more painful.]

...Well. At the very least, we can the beach thing happen. And maybe some of your memories will come back to you with time.

[A different point in time. At least he won't disappear just yet. He's been granted time, somehow. Roxas isn't sure if he feels relieved or not.]

[He nods at that though, at least he believes Riku on this matter that Sora won't make him disappear.]

I don't think so. When I was born I didn't have any memories at all. I was a zombie. I never got those memories. I saw a few dreams of you, and Kairi and Sora recently. That's pretty new though. There's always a beach.

[Grins a little.]

Because we live on an island. We practically grew up at the beach.

[This subject is one of Roxas' favourite subjects, even if Riku wasn't being nice, it's enough to trigger his biggest smile. He leans forward with great interest.]

What's it like at the beach? Is it warm? I always seem to think it's warm when I wake up. Did you get to touch the water? Oh! What did you do there?

[It really is a shame DiZ didn't bother making Roxas a beach to go to.]

[Blinks at this sudden change in attitude, before laughing slightly.]

Of course it's warm. More than that, it's just plain hot most of the time. We'd go swimming a lot. And build sandcastles when we were younger. Sora and I would race all the time, too.

Wow...

[Roxas is sufficiently in awe, Axel didn't say all that much about the beach and he didn't really welcome any follow up questions.]

Yeah... It was...pretty great.

[And yet he'd wanted nothing more than to leave. Riku sighs.]

Anyway, you'll see. We'll find a good beach to go to here.

Really? Okay. I hope so. There's water here, it's already pretty amazing. We didn't have anything like this in Twilight Town.

...I know.

[Glances at Roxas.]

The Organization never sent you anywhere that had an ocean?

[Roxas has to think about this. These memories are part of the clump of memories that just got shoved back into his head and it takes a minute for him to sort through them. He's quiet almost too long for such a simple question, but finally he nods.]

I remember getting a seashell before, but I don't know what I did with it. There must have been an ocean there, but I wasn't allowed to go to the beach. Supposed to go to work and go back to the castle.

[He exhales and smiles a bit.] But me and Axel didn't always do that. A lot of times we go up to the clock tower and eat sea salt ice cream and watch the sun set! Because we're best friends.

Yeah, I know you guys were close. Are close. He kept trying to go into Twilight Town and get you back.

I didn't remember him.

[The single words hurt him straight to the core. How he could have forgotten Axel, he didn't know.]

You do now. That's what matters.

[Roxas tilts his head, looking at Riku curiously.]

Do you think so? You think he'll forgive me for forgetting him? I didn't mean to! I just...couldn't remember anything.

[Doesn't he sound frustrated too.]

[Looks faintly amused, though being amused at Roxas' frustration probably isn't cool, so he tries to wipe the expression from his face.]

I don't think not forgiving you was ever an option. He doesn't seem mad at you now, right? He probably knows it wasn't your fault.

Maybe. I hope so. I don't like it when I forget things.

[It is really frustrating.]

Trust me. I know how the best friend thing works. If Sora could forgive me, Lea can definitely forgive you.

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