Prayer 1- Voice

[mostly_me]

The voice is a little wavering and unsteady, but quiet and reverent all the same.

Are you there, Heavenly Father?

It's me, Kevin.

I know I've done the unthinkable, abandoning Elder Cunningham in Uganda and breaking rule seventy-two- and I understand that it's Your righteous judgement that I've not done enough to be forgiven. I thought at first that- well, that's not important. He clears his throat. I should never have questioned You, and this is my punishment-

No, not my punishment. This is the opportunity that You've granted me to redeem myself.

I read the words on the fountain, thanks to the guide You placed in my path. 'What once was whole, now 'tis shattered'- I understand! Now, his voice steadies. It's been my mission all along, to do something so incredible- to gather together these tortured souls that have been shattered from beneath Your sight and make them whole again. Make all of us whole again.

'It's power is great, true depths untold'- it's the power inside of me. I understand now.

So, Lord- if You could see fit to put a patient, forgiving crew in my path as well, I would really appreciate it- I understand You help those who help themselves, but growing up in Utah didn't really prepare me for sailing- not that I'm complaining, mind you, it's just an observation.

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[mostly_me]

There's deep concern in his voice.

Why would you say such a thing about yourself? All of us are proof of God! If there was no God, there would be no creation- there would be nothing at all. The fact that you exist is proof that the Lord does.

[redcinemareel]

Hardly! It's quite the contrary! It is because beings like myself exist that proves there is no such thing as an all encompassing deity. I wouldn't say anything that weren't the truth when it comes to this sort of subject.

[She pauses for a brief moment.]

It could also be the case that your world is different from mine.

[mostly_me]

That's not a new argument for a trained missionary.

The Heavenly Father created all worlds, not just mine. He sounds like he's reciting.There is no sin without law. There is no darkness without light. There is no void without creation- and the Lord created all things.

What is it about you that makes you think you couldn't have been created by a loving God?

[redcinemareel]

How about you close whatever book you're reading from first. Conversing with a parrot is not my cup of tea.

Loving isn't one word I'd use. More like one with an awful sense of humor. But I digress.

[mostly_me]

He sounds a little wounded.

I was just explaining it how I remembered it, actually...

What do you mean, an awful sense of humor...? The Lord's ways are sometimes obscure, but never without love.

[redcinemareel]

[Well, good!]

You shouldn't just remember things without your own proofs.

If you truly wish to know why I'm so positive about my statements, we can talk privately. In person. I don't particularly trust these journals enough for private conversations here.

[mostly_me]

I would love to meet you if you would feel more comfortable. I'm on... the island with the fountain? With the poem on it?

[redcinemareel]

My ship is not there, currently. You'll have to come here, I'm afraid.

Do you not have a crew, yet?

[mostly_me]

I think I do. I'm working on it.

He sounds sheepish.

So... I guess that's a rain check?

[redcinemareel]

One that will not expire. When you're ready to claim it, ask for Captain Grell the Red.

[mostly_me]

Captain...?

Kevin is impressed.

I will. Thank you for your invitation.