[Voice]

[by_heart]

Okay, clearing something up for a friend of mine who insists he's not scared of the ocean.

List of Scary Things About The Ocean:

1. Giant spider crabs

2. Giant spider crabs

3. Drowning

4. Smaller spider crabs, I don't know. Now someone else list things.

[Yes, he did just make a list out loud instead of writing it down. Don't ask. He likes the sound of his own voice.]

Comments

[om_nom_namur]

Well if y' didn't then the li'l shits eatin' y'd probly finish the job. Point is, no matter where y' go someone's gonna try an' kill y'. So y' might as well jus' keep tryin' t' get stronger an' try t' stuff more'n kelp in yer brain an' it'll be fine.

[heartismyown]

I'm really strong! But I don't know about face bugs or dick fish!

[om_nom_namur]

Better get learnin' then. Read a book or some shit, an' pay real close attention t' the world 'round y'. Learn a lot jus' from payin' attention. Listen t' shit people say. Stuff like that.

[heartismyown]

I'm trying! Sometimes it makes my head hurt though.

[Well at least he's not going to forget his new rule about not peeing in the ocean. Ick.]

[om_nom_namur]

Sheheh! Mine, too. 'S alright if y' don't understand it all on the first go. Learnin' takes time an' yer barely a smolt, so don't worry 'bout the headaches an' keep at it, y' know? Some day y'll realize y' know a hell of a lot more'n y' thought.

[heartismyown]

[He smiles at that, it sounds very encouraging actually.]

Really? You think so? I'll keep trying!

[om_nom_namur]

[Surprise!]

Sounds like a damn good plan t' me!

How's yer new crew workin' out for y'? They treat y' good?

[heartismyown]

[He would have anyway, Lea gets annoyed when he's in the mood to curl up in a ball and hide somewhere.]

Yeah, I think so. Gaius told me about this really good bakery on that one island and he made me some ice cream!

[Cementing their friendship right there.]

Mostly I can't do anything though, I've been injured for a little while, since I came back shot. I think it's almost done though. I'm looking forward to it, sitting around is so boring!

[om_nom_namur]

Shit, ain't y' got a healer or a doctor or somethin'? Shoulda got yer ass over here an' talked t' Leanne or Chandra or Nami.

[heartismyown]

No, we didn't.

[He's shaking his head but Namur can't see him.]

We have one now I think. I had to go see a doctor and he made me put my arm in a sling all month! It's so boring when I only have one arm. The captain was worried because I was having a hard time holding my keyblade. I dropped it which is really weird cause I don't ever drop it!

[He pauses a moment.]

I don't think I'm supposed to visit for awhile.

[om_nom_namur]

Tch. Not like y' couldn't a Navved right back. Yer a person an' y' got the ability t' make yer own damn decisions, so nice excuse.

[And suddenly Namur is reminded why he always found Roxas aggravating. He's barely a smolt, sure, but he acts like just barely spawned fry. Hell, Sal's pups had wills of their own from the get go. It didn't make a lot of sense. Namur blows out a long breath.]

Anyway, 's good y' finally got looked at. Hope y' get feelin' better soon.

[heartismyown]

It's not an excuse. It's a promise I made. I know I could go back and forth, but all I'm doing is fighting about it.

[It's exhausting, really exhausting.]

Every time I go it's just a big fight when I come back.

[He sounds a little tired but he sighs warily. It's alright if people don't understand.]

I should be better soon. Thanks.

[om_nom_namur]

Well if y' made a promise then say y' made a promise, not that y' ain't s'posed t'. The other way makes it sound like yer lettin' someone else make yer decisions for y'. But if y' made a promise an' y' intend t' keep it, 's differnt. Even if other people think it's stupid, they gotta step off since y' chose t' give yer word, see? Jus' say shit the way it is the first time. Less confusion. Damn.

[heartismyown]

I'm not supposed to because I promised.

[Roxas sounds a bit on the puzzled side.]

I intend to keep my promise, yeah, but I don't really know how it's different? What did I say wrong?

[om_nom_namur]

[Wow, he already explained it. But he scrubs his hand over his face with a long sigh, trying to think of another way to say it. The question is sincere enough, so it deserves a sincere answer.]

'S about the way it sounds t' other people. If yer sayin' I ain't s'posed t', it makes it sound like someone else give y' the limitation an' it ain't necessarily somethin' y' wanna do but the punishment's bad 'nuff y' don't wanna risk it. Makin' y' trapped or scared or some shit. Kinda weak soundin'.

But if y' say I made a promise, then it don't matter what it is or what other people think a it. Cuz if they respect y' as a man a yer word- which yer friends an' family should be doin'- then 's more important that y' keep the promise no matter what it is. Makes y' stronger, fightin' t' keep a promise y' made. An' y' made it yerself. Can't no one else make y' make a promise if y' don't wanna. Comes from yer own will.

Make sense?

[heartismyown]

[He thinks about it all. He's still a little confused, but he's trying to understand the difference.]

I guess so? I don't know. It's not never or anything, it's just I promised I would stay here for awhile because Lea said I haven't spent enough time here and he wasn't happy about that.

[And he was absolutely right too, Roxas had been all over the place.]

I don't want people to think I'm weak, I'm not!

[om_nom_namur]

So long as y' feel the same, guess that's what I'm divin' at. Don't put it all on Lea if yer the one makin' decisions.

[heartismyown]

I'm not sure it matters how I feel about it now, I gave my word. I will come visit again, just not for awhile, that's all.

[om_nom_namur]

How y' feel 'bout shit always matters, cuz it makes y' part a who y' are. Affects the choices yer gonna make in the future.

[heartismyown]

I guess so. I love Lea so even if I don't agree with him all the time or completely, I can live with my decision.

[om_nom_namur]

Well, there y' go.