Perhaps. Or perhaps the fact that I'm the only one who has never fully hesitated to smash someone's head when I had to makes people think that the others can't do it as well. Shun is far stronger than me, but he hates to fight and harm others, so he's always holding himself back even at the cost of his own life.

[Stupid little brother.]

It is nice. And weird. I admit I was quite confused and weirded out when I had the freedom to decide which crew I wanted to join. I offered myself for recruiting but... Didn't expect to have several offers and have to pick one. I hadn't even considered the idea that more than one crew would be willing to take me.

I guess it sounds weird, but I think that before I came here, the last time I was able to freely decide something by myself, without any pressure from anywhere or anyone, was... When I decided to take my newborn baby brother with me instead of just leave him with our dead mother. [A pause.] I was five or so at the time.

[And now that he thinks of it that surely was a lot of fucking time.]