005 - audio

[hoodwinking]

[A little girl's voice comes through the journal. Except, it's a little more hardened and bitter than usual! Anyone who's spoken to B.B. before may not find the voice instantly recognizable, a definite change from the usual high pitched tone the young lady has.]

Are we done crying about everyone leaving yet?

I've been here what, half a year now? I get it at this point. Who stays and who goes is completely up to some asinine bullshit whim. But guess what? Everyone whining won't bring them back. That's just how it is.

Grow a pair and move the hell on already. Leaving is what humans do. If you don't know that by now, there's no hope for any of you.

[Don't mind her. She might be sampling some fruits from way up high.]

Comments

audio:

[hostclubshadowking]

Not what I meant, actually. Death here seems to be quite fleeting.

audio:

[hoodwinking]

Then what do you mean. Out with it already. [impatiently, sounding increasingly irritated.]

audio:

[hostclubshadowking]

[His own tone doesn't change. It remains perfectly calm, almost serene.]

I'm sure you'll come to it yourself. Eventually.

audio:

[hoodwinking]

Hmph.

I'm sure I'll forget about it. I'm only looking forward, not back.

audio:

[hostclubshadowking]

An unwise point of view.

Living in the past is foolish, of course. Holding onto what's gone so tightly that nothing new can come. But it's equally foolish to look straight ahead with no notice of what's gone before. Experience, especially viewed through the lens of a year or more past, is a valuable teacher.

Though I'm sure you'll disregard all of that.

[He actually sounds like he's smiling -- like he's amused -- at the last sentiment.]

audio:

[hoodwinking]

[On the other side of the journal, there's a clear snapping sound, not unlike that of a pen being broken.]

Give me a break! I've got nothing to look back on! I feel like I've only done nothing but waste time just playing pirate along with all of you!

audio:

[hostclubshadowking]

[Kyouya might have just barely held back a chuckle there.]

Then figure out how to stop wasting time.

But, ah. To do that, you'd have to examine the past and alter your conduct accordingly. So, it seems, if you hold to your self-professed way of thinking, you're stuck doing exactly what you have been.

audio:

[hoodwinking]

You do realize it's possible for someone to change without dwelling too much on previous events, right? I don't need to look back at a gaping void in my head to determine what I need to do tomorrow.

audio:

[hostclubshadowking]

But without reflection, it is far more difficult to identify patterns and modify your behavior or situation accordingly.

It certainly isn't something that needs to be done at every minute of every day, but there's a reason history is taught. The past can -- and should -- be learned from.

audio:

[hoodwinking]

Fine. I'm learning right now, in fact. "Ignore this pompous voice", I've learned. Thank you for the lesson.

audio:

[hostclubshadowking]

You're welcome.

[Complete smugness.]