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I want to apologize for my behavior at the beginning of the month. I was...well. It doesn't matter. [No, she doesn't want to go into details.] I can see I wasn't the only one.

That doesn't make me feel much better.

Anyway, I'm...normal again, so where can I help? [Being useful will make her feel better. Maybe? SHE DOESN'T KNOW ANYMORE.] Is everyone alright?

[Private to Tamaki.]

I can't catch your dog. [Meaning she can't get her clothes back.] It might be a lost cause, but it would be nice if I could put my clothes where they belong.

[i.e. in her closet or on her back.]

And...as for...some of things I said...

Forget it. Forget all of it.

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[Kyouya manages a small smile. A bit amused... but mostly a mask. Because there are still walls he hides behind. Things he tries to keep secret.]

We can't stay in high school forever. We can't always be the Host Club.

I... think it would be good for him. If it's what you want. Just to give it a try.

[His hands shift a little around the cup of tea. A small gesture of reordering his thoughts, of momentary distraction.

But this can't be about him. He can't be selfish. He has to take care of Tamaki, not himself.]

Maybe you'll find there's nothing there. That's entirely possible. Or you might find something pleasantly unexpected.

[The more she considers the circumstances, the more she realizes that Kyouya has nothing to gain in this situation. In fact, he stands to lose some of the closeness that he shares with Tamaki.]

You're kind. [He looks exhausted and he could be sleeping right now - instead, he is comforting her.] Tamaki couldn't ask for a better friend.

[Regardless of what he thinks he owes Tamaki. After awhile, the game of checks and balances becomes unimportant.]

I'll think about it. But I…

I'm not sure I want things to change.

They're going to.

[Finally, there's a change in Kyouya's tone.

It's something he usually reserves for Kaoru. For those moments they stand alone, on the outskirts, watching the others. When they understand each other and know what's to come, no matter how blind the others might be.

But Kaoru's not here. Neither is Mori. The next person for Kyouya to say it to? Is in front of him.]

No matter how much we fight it, [and he knows he's revealing too much, making it clear he's fought it] things are going to change. They have to.

Maybe the story isn't Cinderella. [A commoner marrying a prince.] But, eventually, the clock has to strike midnight.

You don't have to. I don't intend to interfere. It's your choice entirely, but...

I think he cares about you. [Did a bit of quiet, resigned jealousy creep into his tone? He isn't sure, but he tries to guard against it as he continues.] More than he does the rest of us -- differently than he does the rest of us.

If you think you might feel the same way, I don't want to see you put off taking the chance until it's too late.

Probably. I'm not naive. But it doesn't have to change all at once or abruptly.

[She gives him a warm smile, wanting to give him some of the comfort he had given her. It really seems like Tamaki isn't the only one with a good heart. Not that that surprises her. She knows the twins are good people - deep down. Mischievous, but good. And Hani and Mori are rather heroic at times.

Now there's Kyouya who really doesn't like seeing others upset. He had proven that at the commoner's market when he had kept that lady from being swindled. She feels very lucky that she has such good people looking out for her.]

I don't need a fairytale. Those aren't real. I prefer something real. [A small smile follows his admittance.] He won't forget you...and neither will I. Nothing was the same without you around.

That's why I wanted to fight. I know that's not my forte, but they took someone special to all of us.

[He won't forget you.

Kyouya has to smile just a little. Because he knows. He knows his friends care about him, and now he's seen how much he matters to them. Which he appreciates quite a bit.

He just has to make sure they're all taken care of. Eventually.

If not Haruhi, then someone else. He'll find the right girl, arrange things perfectly.

But. Well. It's something he'll need to say to all of them eventually. Individually.

He can start with her.]

Thank you. For coming.

[He has a calming effect on their group - and he is the only one with logic at times. Without him, things really get crazy. That curse hadn't been the sole reason things had tipped upside down and stopped making sense.]

Anytime! [As if she could leave him kidnapped.] What kind of Host Club would we be if we let a little Navy stop us?

We're in a very strange world. [Kyouya sighs, shaking his head a little.] It's good for us to rely on one another.

To be able to.

[And, well. He can offer this slight confession.]

I think I'm starting to get used to it.

Isn't the Host Club world always kind of strange? [Less dangerous, of course, but still...yes. Strange.] As long as we're together, it's the least we can do.

[Her eyes widen and she looks up at Kyouya curiously. Then she beams.]

That's not a bad thing.

I suppose it is.

Though [Kyouya smiles a bit... or perhaps it's closer to a smirk.] I prefer problems I can buy or threaten our way out of.

This sort of system doesn't lend itself to that.

[Her smile begins to fade the slightest bit. Oh. There's the Kyouya she first met.]

You'll have to be creative.

[Or, you know, less manipulative.]

It's hard being without resources.

[Less manipulative? Oh, Haruhi. Without the money of his family and his position? He has to become more manipulative.]

It is. Especially for so long.

But I'd like to think we're adapting.

[Her naïveté knows no bounds at times like this. She really does try to see the best in people - even when she knows someone is ambitious and manipulative naturally. ~~CoughKyouyacough.~~]

You mean you've found other ways to sustain yourself, right?

I mean I've found ways to keep us fed.

[Fed, clothed, kept alive.

There are plenty of people to talk to, to deal with, and to learn to balance. They're all new; he's had to perfect a whole new act.

But...]

It'll be easier now. With the Host Club back to work.

I guess I can't complain about that. [She wants to live. And eat. And not wander around nude.] I'm ready to be the Natural again. But...

I might've ruined the act for some people. I think I announced I was a girl over the journals.

More or less.

[Oops?]

[Kyouya shrugs slightly.]

Then we'll adapt.

There's no reason not to have our hostesses.

[After all, the Club needed to be able to work here, whatever it took.]

Are you open to receiving female and male customers? Or specifically one?

That decision needs to fall to you.

I don't really mind. Either? [Honestly, Haruhi isn't fussy about gender.] It will give the club another outlet for male costumers.

[She pauses before lowering her voice.]

But I'm still not that comfortable dressing like a girl.

You can dress however you'd like.

[A small price to pay, certainly. He folds his hands together and smiles faintly.]

It would be best for us to be open to as many guests as possible.

I've found a regular myself.

[Which keeps a small but steady income... or did until this recent break.]

[It's a bit of a relief to be honest. She sighs before arching a brow.]

Who? I'm not surprised. To survive in this environment, the girls have to be less...

[Silly.]

Your personality would appeal to them.

A... "mage" I believe the term used was.

[It seems strange. To talk about these things. But they're real here. They're part of life.]

His world's term for a magic-user. It sounds like something out of one of Renge's games or shows.

[He? Haruhi smiles faintly and bows her head, doing her best not to embarrass him.]

He sounds interesting. I wouldn't mind see some of his magic - especially if it's real.

[He sees that smile and nods his head just once.]

As I said when I first told you I wanted to restart the Club here -- I won't ever ask something of one of you I'm not willing to do myself.

[As to Sydni's magic...]

He gave me a poultice. Healing properties, he said. Water and an herb he called elfroot. I asked for a sketch of it. Just in case it grows here.

[She has wondered in the past and now she has her answer. It's something she will protect too because she knows Tamaki (and others) might not be as...tactful.]

I didn't doubt you. [Ambition doesn't go hand in hand with dishonesty.] I'll help you look for it in the market if you like? Or does it grow in the wild?

I haven't heard of it growing wild or being for sale, but I'm certainly going to look. If the poultice is even half as effective as he says, it could benefit us quite a lot.

Maybe the next time you see him, you could ask for a picture? [They could keep it on file somewhere.] It sounds like his knowledge could be really helpful.

I'm supposed to meet him for an outing next time we're on Empieza. I certainly plan to try and get a drawing. It'd be good to have around.

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