[Written]

[reluctantjinrou]

[It's late at night when the journal entry appears.]

Evening.

I suppose I am writing in this thing because I can't sleep. I haven't really figured out what to do about that. Any suggestions would be helpful.

[There's a pause, before he adds more.]

Is anyone else up at this hour? What are you doing with your time?

[Another pause, longer than the last.]

If anyone would like to talk right now, that would be fine.

Comments

[elissacousland]

Good. I like that he is not on the same ship. That will likely be better for you. I am also glad to hear that you have other friends on your crew that make you wish to remain. That is good news, too.

As for love? It seems to find all of us whether or not we are prepared for it or desire it.

[reluctantjinrou]

I like my crew a lot. I wouldn't want to leave it. Take a break, maybe, but I don't want to leave for good. I already got a tattoo, it's a little late now, isn't it?

I wasn't going to have any romantic relationships. Where I'm from, in the culture, I'm unusual. Some people don't like that.

[elissacousland]

Because you drink blood? Or because you like men?

[reluctantjinrou]

The fact I drink blood is more terrifying than anything else, and most people don't know that.

It would be the latter. It isn't the most accepted thing where I am from.

[elissacousland]

My last lover was quite open with the fact that he liked both women and men. I would say that most Fereldens find it slightly strange, but the Chantry does not profess it to be immoral. Marriages are arranged as a means to produce offspring, but that would not stop someone from having the lover of their choice.

I am sorry that you are not accepted in your homeland.

[reluctantjinrou]

It's alright. It's more like people like me don't really exist. People don't really talk about it. Originally I was going to be a lawyer, at least that was my goal. It isn't something I could disclose openly.

It is no longer illegal, but there are no protections against discrimination or anything else. It is very complicated.

[elissacousland]

It sounds it. However, I would wager that you are wrong about others with your feelings not existing. More likely, they simply hide it away as you did out of fear. People keep many secrets when they fear they will face ridicule or censure.

[reluctantjinrou]

It isn't that they don't exist, it's just that that's how things are considered to be. Most likely, that is what happens. People just don't say anything. However, those things are behind me, at least here, it isn't like that.