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[theres the sound of a book being flung open, and then...]

what the HECK?! What'd I do, piss of Davy Jones or something? Eat some strange food? Walk through some... Cursed fairy magical stupid crap?! WHY AM I A....[he paused to look at himself again. Just what the heck is he?]

FURRY RACCOON THING?!

....urgh. I like this place but it's weird. Seriously. Whatever this crap is, it better go back to normal. Anyone in the Bloody Roses hear me? It looks like I'm on isle Empieza for some weird reason in addition to being a fuzzy freaking forest animal. I'm gonna go to the Backwater Brig and use the nav to get to the ship.

((Ooc: oh noes! Thash has swapped bodies with Yasaburo the raccoon dog shapeshifter! But he doesn't know how to shapeshift so currently he's just a raccoon dog. This post is open to action Yasaburo, Thash, and anyone on the bloody roses who interacts with them while body swapped. Feel free to start branching threads from it where needed. Open audio to everyone else!))

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Oh? Ok then, cool. [he still tried to sound upbeat in an effort to make this not so bad for her]

I've always... thought of doing that as something I'd...only do with a woman I married. A big part of that choice is the pregnancy thing. I hope you understand... With my background, fathering a child with a woman that doesn't want one or doesn't want to stay with me in the long run might...give the kid a crappy life, you know? I don't want to make someone who'll have a life like mine without parents who care...

[he trailed off a bit, his upbeat tone gone]

Another part of it is the bonding thing I already mentioned. I'm only telling you this so...you don't think there's some other reason I haven't done that with you. I'm sure guys that share your view on it and knew about the pill thing think nothing of it, and would only refuse to sleep with you if they thought there was something wrong with you, or....I dunno, didn't like you or something. Those aren't my reasons. There's nothing wrong with you and I like you a lot... Well screw that, you know Iove you.

[now that he knew about her contraceptive capability, it took away half of his reason not to sleep with her....but the emotional bonding component was still important to him. He wanted to think it over more before telling her his mind had changed, if I did. In the meantime, he didn't want her having the wrong idea about why he wasn't doing that with her]

*Faye listened to Thash, and did her best not to appear frustrated or disappointed with any of this. It took a lot of effort, but she did finally managed to give an expression that suggested that she didn't really mind, playing it cool. She could have guessed at his views though - he hadn't even kissed his previous girlfriend, and it took an understanding of love before he'd kissed her. She had to fight not to be angry and upset at the knowledge that she wasn't going to get something that she deeply wanted - marriage and children were far from her agenda*

Right. So. Those are your principles. Fair enough.

*She folded her arms rather defensively over her chest, smiling somewhat distantly*

At least I know that it isn't because you think there's something wrong with me. I was beginning to wonder..

*Faye tried to make it sound like a light hearted joke, but she also meant it. It really was good to know that it wasn't because he was grossed out by her or anything*

[even though she was playing cool, he could sense she was pretty upset by her tone and posture... The somewhat cold smile was a give away, too. He sighed a bit, scooting a little closer to her and raising a hand tentatively to scratch her back]

I thought you might be. I didn't want you thinking the wrong thing. I can tell you're still disappointed though....I'm sorry.

[he looked down a bit, feeling rather terrible. He hated letting her down and sometimes it felt like he did that more than he made her happy. He'd felt pretty excited about the advances they were making lately but at some point he had to remind himself that such things probably weren't as satisfying for her]

I'm kinda a bad boyfriend, huh...

*It was pretty disappointing to her, so she wasn't going to tell him otherwise just to make him feel better. That's just now how she works. Faye leaned against him gently, allowing him to scratch her back in that way that always seemed to calm her somehow*

Don't be sorry. And you're not a bad boyfriend. I'm just impatient and... I'm terrible when I know there's something I really want, but that I can't have it. You know what I'm like...

*She shrugged at that, but maybe Thash didn't completely know the lengths she went to to get what she wants, and she didn't always get those things fairly. This, though, was of course not something she was going to take by force*

Anything else you wanted to ask, or talk about?

[even if she had told him otherwise, he was pretty good at detecting wether she was saying what she really meant or not by now. He had to wonder for a few moments if these views of his would eventually result in him losing her... He knew that kind of thing was important to her, which was why he was really trying to keep her as satisfied as possible even if it meant pushing the limits of his comfort level. It was somewhat disappointing to him to know those efforts were still insufficient]

[it was times like these when he really wondered if, despite their physical compatability, they were emotionally compatible or not]

No...nothing really important anyway.

[he wanted to change the subject now...he'd said what he wanted to say and learned what he'd wanted to learn. There was no point in dwelling on a subject that was upsetting to both of them. So much for making it a pleasant conversation...at least she wasn't openly mad at him. When she leaned against him he leaned his head against hers lightly, continuing the soothing scratching]

Have you met the new people yet? They've guarded me but I haven't really spoken to them much... It's really kinda embarrassing being in that situation. I'd rather just avoid talking to 'em in this raccoon body and have a good introduction when I get my own body back...

Okay.

*Faye wasn't sure what else to say, because she sensed already that she'd said the wrong thing. She did have something that she wanted to say, but was thinking that her moment had passed. Especially since he appeared to be making an effort to change the subject*

Hmm? There's a few new people, right? I've spoken to Gene a bit.

[he noticed her pause and thoughtful expression and wondered for a moment if he should have asked her if there was anything in particular she wanted to say or talk about...thus he had a hard time focusing on his own subject change]

Hm? Oh, Gene? The red-haired guy right? [hed heard someone say his name but still hadn't really spoken to him in any significant way. He scratched Faye's back a little higher, close to the neck]

And some ninja like girl named Harmony....and I've smelled the scent of some other male human on board but I'm not really sure cuz I haven't seen him...

[even with the unrelated subject of discussion he couldn't yet shake the feeling that he'd hampered their closeness with his questions and opinions...it was a rather distressing feeling and it made him want to hold her close. He thought about asking first but tossed that idea out, simply reaching over and gathering up Faye in his arms and pulling her over to his lap where he could put his arms and tail around her and cuddle her affectionately. There, that was better]

By the way there wasn't...anything else you wanted to say was there?

Yeah, that's him. He's a gun user too, so I don't feel like such a loner among all you weird sword wielding types.

*Faye raised a brow when he mentioned the other two, briefly wondering to herself if this new ninja girl was pretty. She really hoped not. When he gathered her up close and held her,she did feel much better, slowly moving her arms around him*

Just that... I need you to understand that... this isn't about me just wanting you. Yes, I know, I really am very attracted to you. And I want you very badly sometimes... But this is about wanting to be close you. I want to be as close to you as possible and that's...one way how.

*That she had slept with men she hadn't cared about, but hadn't with Thash felt strange to her too*

Oh...yeah, I thought that was a gun on his hip... [he didn't say anything about it, but he'd certainly noticed Gene was an attractive and confident human guy. That he had the gun thing in common with Faye also made him seem like a guy Faye would probably go after... Thash hoped she wouldn't start to regret being his girl with a man like that on board]

[he held her a little closer when she put her arms around him and listened to what she had to say] so you want to be closer with me... [the idea that she'd slept with guys she didn't care about crossed his mind, too. How interesting that she could see something like that as a way to be close and yet did it with guys she apparently had little desire to be emotionally close to]

[in his mind, the tail piercing she'd given him was a far clearer sign that she wanted to be closer to him, even though he was trying to accommodate her sexual desires too...and finding quite a bit of enjoyment in it himself]

I...felt a lot closer to you after what we did on my birthday. ...did you feel the same way? Or was it just disappointing because you'd like more than that...?

..yes.

*When he said it, Faye felt ridiculous. She could imagine what he was thinking, and it didn't really make sense. But to Faye it did, and she thought that was the strongest way to show her feelings. How it would be with Thash, she knew, would be different to how it was with anyone*

You see? These things can make people feel closer.

*Faye shook her head with some enthusiasm, looking at him in surprise*

No. Thash - that was... good. It felt incredible. Not every man can make a woman feel that way... You noticed, didn't you? How much I enjoyed it...

I know they can... [it was the same line of thinking as the emotional bonding thing, really. He knew he'd feel a lot closer to her if he did that with her. Which made him all the more reluctant to do it if he wasn't sure their relationship would be a long lasting one. Already he knew he'd be broken hearted if their relationship came to an end. How much worse would it be if he felt that much closer to her?]

[he blinked a bit after she shook her head and looked at him] yeah, I...noticed. I mean you seemed like you really, really liked it. [not every man could do that? It had felt incredible? He'd been so sure that his inexperience out him behind in that category that it was very good to hear her say that. All he'd had to do was be responsive to what kind of touch she seemed to like the most, really...]

Which is why I'm a little confused about how disappointed you are we haven't gone all the way and the speed of our progress. I thought I was satisfying you.... You sure satisfied the heck outta me.

[he blushed a little as he thought back on it. It had been so shockingly good it was almost painful. If he hadn't dug his claws into her sheets he probably would have yelled.]

*Faye was beginning to get the feeling again that their ideas of physical and emotional closeness were getting confused. She sighed softly, her arms not quite as tightly around him now. Faye lowered her head, eventually leaning enough that she brought her knees up to her eyes. She didn't know what to think or say or do, but when he said he was confused, she felt a wave of guilt, of that horrible knowledge that she was disappointing him. She sat back up again, raising her shoulders then slouching*

You do satisfy me. And I am happy that things have moved on.

It's not going to happen either way, is it? So. Don't worry about it. We shouldn't think about it.

[he kept his arms and tail around her, but not very tightly so she could adjust herself and sit how she liked]

Well...probably not any time soon but....I don't know. This is still so new to me. You...know I've never let anyone touch me down there before... [he blushed again, glancing away] you're the first. It took quite a bit of love and trust for me to go that far. So...know that at least. My love and trust for you have grown a lot. As they continue to grow, well...who knows.

[he leaned towards her slightly to give her a light kiss on the side of her neck] I also want you to know that...short of full intimacy Id be willing to try other stuff with you. I may not know all of what other stuff is possible but I can learn. If it's awkward to tell me, just...show me or guide me. I'll probably figure it out.

[like how she'd shown him what she could do with her mouth... That was something he intended to put into practice at a later time. The chocolate thing had sounded nice too...there were probably a lot of thing he could do once he got past his nervousness. Pushing his comfort and knowledge level that way until he got past it could be exciting at times]

Sorry. I know you're trying hard, to trust me enough, and to..want to try things. Really, I appreciate it. And you should know that you don't have to do these things, not just because I want you to.

*She smiled a little more, though, thinking his blush was adorable, while also feeling very good anout what he'd said. Faye readjusted the way she was sitting, but kept close to him, nuzzling gently against his chest*

The same goes for you, if there are things you'd like...

[he smiled warmly at her nuzzle and reply, hugging her tighter]

It's not just because it's what you want. Making you happy makes me happy and...I want it too. I just didn't know how much I did before, heh. It's a good thing I had an awesomely patient and hot girlfriend to show me...

Patient? Is this your other girlfriend you're talking about?

*Faye grinned at Thash, shaking her head softly, but happy to accept compliments from him all the same*

Thash, I respect what you say about what you do or don't want. It's hard for me, because I... the less said about how badly I want things the better. But I'm more than happy to let you make me feel good in any way in the meantime.

Heheh...if you were that impatient, there's no way you'd stick around for my slow tail to get moving...

[he smiled back at her, nodding] okay. I want you too, trust me...but in the meantime I'll do my best however I can.

Maybe I just happen to like that tail...maybe that's what keeps me patient.

*With a smirk, Faye leaned even closer to him, her hand reaching for the underside of his tail, just to briefly run her hand along where she knew he was particularly sensitive*

If either of us wants to enjoy each other's body, the first thing we need is for you to get your own body back.

[he smiled at her pleasantly until she reached a hand down to stroke the most sensitive part of his tail. At that point he gave a small gasp, then looked at her with a but of shy desire]

Heh, yeah... You're right. It's awesome you like my tail... So I need to get it back soon.

Y'know, if you were human forevee, I'd really miss it.

*She gave a genuine smile, but sneakily reached down to tickle him again in the same place*

Does this mean we need to get you back to the cell...?

[he gave a large, happy smile. Any time he thought about it, it was still amazing to him that he had a beautiful human girlfriend who not only wasn't bothered by his tail, but liked it]

[when she tickled his tail he couldn't help bursting into laughter and moving it back from her, squirming a bit. It might not be as bad as his dorsal fin but it certainly was ticklish]

[his smile faded a little when she mentioned the cell] yeah....unfortunately. There'll be trouble if Grell finds out about this. But if she doesn't explain herself at least by tomorrow I'm gonna sneak out and not give a crap what she thinks. She'll have had plenty of time to figure all this out by then.

*Faye smiled back at his laughter, resisting the urge to pull him into a kiss, reminding herself that this wasn't actually his body. She nudged her side against him in a light hearted way when his smile disappeared*

You don't hate me, do you? I know I'm probably a terrible girlfriend for making you go back there... I just want to avoid as much aggro as possible.

[the smile returned but smaller when she nudged him]

Haha of course I don't hate you...it's not your fault I'm being locked up. And you don't have to make me go anywhere...id go in my own anyway. Do to have much if a choice if I want Grell and the rest of this crew to trust me.

[not that the crew or Grell trusting him was super important....but it'd make things easier, for sure]

I don't think the rest of the crew are the problem. Grell's either being very paranoid, stupid, or cruel. Probably even a mixture of the lot. The others trust you, and the new people don't know you. So yeah. Just Grell.

*Faye picked up his hand and squeezed it softly, gently stroking his tail with her other hand*

After this blows over, and we get the chance to, I think we should go out. Go for a few drinksand try to just.. relax for a change.

Yeah, guess you're right there...no one else was suggesting I was dangerous.

[he gave her hand a gantlet squeeze as well, his tail moving slightly in enjoyment as her hand moved over it. He nodded, nuzzling against her neck before kissing it lightly]

Yeah...that'd be great. I'll probably need it after this and whatever happens with those slavers...