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[Rin has been through a lot lately - and, really, things like getting poisoned are pretty low on the list. The longer he's here, the more he's starting to realize that he may never go back to his own world, and turning 18 a while ago has only emphasized how his time is running out.

Anyway, he's not here to whine. The one and only goal he's ever had is out of reach, probably forever, but he's also had to realize, reluctantly, how there are other important things in life. It's just really hard to try and decide what to do now - you know, apart from somehow trying to accept that he'll break his promise to his father. So... he decides to ask. For the first time ever, he sticks to writing, happy to keep that extra barrier between himself and everyone else. No one's going to hear any emotion from him.]

People come, people go. Sometimes people come back. There's a good chance we're never getting out of this place - or not permanently.

So, if we're stuck here, what are we supposed to do with our lives?

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[Distance through writing? Why would Codi ever take advantage of that?]

We keep looking!

[Jeez, how rude, answering in a different medium ~~nevermind that Rin's done that himself, too~~. Rin stubbornly sticks to writing, though there's a small blot where he held the pen too long before finally moving it.]

For what - those shards? You gotta be kidding.

[Ah, fine. What a wet blanket.]

Why would I be? We've already found a couple! They're obviously out there and worth finding, right?

We've found how many, exactly - in how many month? And how many do we need?

At this rate, we'll retire before we go home.

We've found some! More than none, at least!

[The temptation to reveal that the Witch had an especially large piece on her is strong, but something Codi decides to avoid. Instead, she takes the indirect path: ]

It might not seem like a lot because some crews don't want to let other crews know that they've found shards yet. I can see why they'd want to keep something like that secret.

Regardless of how many we've actually found, we know they're around and they have some kind of power associated with them, so we might as well look. What other options do we have? Sit around on the ocean and mope?

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Keep doing what you were doing before? What sorta question is that?

I can't.

If I could, you think I'd bother asking the likes of you? [Sore point -> instant dislike.]

[A grunt.]

Well, you asked, so don't get pissy when someone answers, y'know.

If you're thinking of giving up, then you'll never get out of this place anyways.

Didn't you pay attention, or what? The chances of getting out and staying out are practically zero. I've wasted too much time here already.

Nothing is zero. With that sorta attitude, you'll never get anything accomplished. Besides, it's not much of a waste if you're meeting new friends and stuff.

I was accomplishing something. I can't do that here. That's the whole point!

[Falling back into old habits already. Well, he tried...]

Then find the crappy gems that'll help you go home so you can finish what you started! Or if you wanna whine about it, I'll do it for you. Geez.

We've been trying for months, and how far did we get?! There could be a million of those damn shards! Meanwhile, I can't even train properly! By the time I get back, it'll be too late!

[That's better. At least Naruto has more experience yelling at some other dude than yelling at written words.]

I train every day, so you can still do that sorta crap! And who cares if there are a million billion trillion shards?! I'll just look a million billion trillion times harder!

[He doesn't even comment on that last part about it being too late because his entire world is about to end if he doesn't get back home. His shout does drop just a little.]

Besides, you might have been lookin' for months, but I just showed up. Now it'll go quicker.

Like hell you can train here! Not for swimming!

[Hey, carrying out some self-imposed nigh-impossible task you've worked at your whole life is totally equal to the world ending. Because it's Rin's world... sad as that is.]

Hah! Right. I'll talk to you again in a couple of months.

MAKE IT DAYS!

AND WHAT THE HELL? THERE'S WATER EVERYWHERE! DO YOU SWIM IN BARBECUE SAUCE OR SOMETHIN'?!

[Yeahhhh, it doesn't take much to escalate him at all.]

I SWIM IN POOLS! YOU THINK YOU CAN TRAIN PROPERLY IN CHOPPY WATER WITH NO SET DISTANCES?!

[Hands down the most intellectual conversation ever to take place in the journals already.]

DIG A POOL YOURSELF AT LEAST THEN YOU WON'T SPEND TIME WHINING.

[That's what happens when two hotheads meet.]

I'M NOT WHINING, YOU IDIOT! YOU THINK WE CAN STAY IN ONE PLACE WITHOUT THE LOCALS OR THE NAVY KILLING US?!

[That at least makes Naruto pause because he is so unimpressed with what he's heard about the navy.]

They don't sound so scary.

Maybe that's because you showed up too late to hear them killing people over the journals.

... So we'll kick their asses and make sure they don't do it again.

You really are an idiot...

I look forward to hearing your death next.

[Well, not really, but he's expecting it, anyway.]

You'll be disappointed, but whatever. Hey, maybe if I find a pool, I'll let you know so you won't be such an asshole.

[Rin should really be offended, but nope. He kinda knows he's a dick, anyway.]

If you find an Olympic pool in this place, I will hand myself over to the Navy.

Dunno what an Oooolempick pool is, but I'll keep an eye out. You're welcome.

Whatever...

[Like he's going to thank someone for an empty promise like that.]

[He will dig you one himself if he has to you asshole.]

[YOU DO THAT and Rin will... just give it this face.]

[It's a question he's asked himself too many times. Something that keeps him up at night.]

Reorganize our priorities. Adapt.

-Otori

I don't have any other priorities.

[The fact that he's admitting as much is the best sign of how desperate he is to find some sort of way out.]

Then you'll have to find some. You'll have to decide what you want to make of yourself in this place.

[But you don't understand. He really doesn't know. He has no clue. And part of him doesn't want to find out, doesn't want to give up on his old goal yet.

There's nothing he wants in this world.]

I'll find something. Something physical to do would be good.

[Well, that's not really a step forward yet. But it could be a useful distraction while he figures out the less practical aspects of who he wants to be.]

Start small.

[Kyouya is actually thinking hard as he writes. Because he's had to re-evaluate his world numerous times. Had to work and try and rearrange. This is... both more and less dramatic.

He's far from home, but that means he's far from the expectations that kept him bound for so long.]

Find something in your daily life. Either eating something that's healthy because you need to or isn't healthy because you want to. Whatever is a shift, whatever you haven't done before but wanted to. Make that a small priority. And then it gets easier. Eventually. To start to shift things.

[Another fortunate side effect of Rin trying to stick to writing: he doesn't spout his gut reaction to that. Actually thinking about it for a moment makes him realize that it's not the worst theory. He can try to ask Nitori how the guy's doing once in a while, maybe.

Will it last? Probably not, but the attempt may be enough to start that change, slowly.]

I doubt that's going to help.

[He may or may not be covering his ass in case he fails.]

But I'll try.

I've dealt with it before -- everything changing, suddenly having to change direction.

It's hard and infuriating. But there's nothing you can do but cope. Even sulking about it? If you do that? Is a way of coping.

You'll figure something out.

I don't sulk.

[Yes, he does. But you'll never know! Unless you have eyes, then all bets are off.]

It's just weird. Not knowing.

[And he can't help but wonder if this is how his dad felt when he had to change his life. It makes Rin feel that much guiltier.]

I apologize. I didn't mean to suggest you did. I merely meant that even if someone does just sulk, which many would consider avoiding dealing with a situation, they are actually dealing with it.

It's a very difficult position, and I hope you find an answer that works for you soon.

It's good that you are thinking properly about this, Rin.

[And really, Mitsuhide is proud of you for getting this far. He knows it isn't easy.]

There is an answer, and I know you'll find it.

[It takes a long time for Rin to write a reply. When it comes, all it says is:]

We'll see.

We continue working towards finding a way back to our worlds.

Let me guess: you just got here?

Yes. In the beginning of the month.

Then you have no idea what you're talking about.

[Rin: always the most polite.]

That's not an option for me.

Join the club.

We're stuck, so you better deal with it.

We're here, but that doesn't mean it's going to be permanent.

If I don't like it, then I'm going to do what I can to change it.

Focus on surviving and stop being such a pessimist, first of all. After that, it's not like anyone here can tell you what you want to do with your life.

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