You're probably right. I just... I'm so uncomfortable with all this. I don't mind this place most of the time, but the entire last month has been the most terrible month of my entire life. Not that I've had much to compare it to, but...

[She sighs, loud enough for the journal to hear.]

I'm going to reach out and take hold of that future - I owe that to my teammates, and myself - but right now it's just hard to see why I'm putting so much into a world that seems like it's trying really hard to break me.