Usually...the people you trust are people that you know care... People that you know have your best interests at heart. I don't know if I can say that Ikki thinks that way anymore. So... I just don't know...
But that's the difference - this girl you were talking about, the one you like. You wouldn't constantly be showing her that anger. Even if you felt it, you wouldn't direct it at her every day, letting her know how badly she disappoints you...
*She struggles, after that, to think of what to say. There's any number of emotions going through her right now, and muddled up and confusing. She looks up when Marco says that Ikki has control of his temper, and that seems to sting. If the way Ikki treated her was controlled, then what he really must have been thinking of feeling must have been tenfold*
If you'd told me all this two months ago... Maybe it would be different. But looks like I did it all wrong. And there's nothing I can do about that now.
*Because what Marco has said does make sense - she can see now how maybe she hurt Ikki when she hadn't expected to. No wonder he was the way he was with her. No wonder things had happened as they did. Though Marco said it wasn't her fault, he was telling her now that she could have dealt with things differently, in a way that might have even meant that she and Ikki would still be together. She takes a deep breath and draws herself up to stand, shakily*
It's better that I do nothing, now. I wasn't good enough. I wasn't strong enough. That's all.
*Selphie glances back towards the forest, blinking her wet eyes, and longing to get lost in the trees, to be given a peace of mind, where she doesn't have to hate herself for what she's done to Ikki. Where before Selphie might have blamed Ikki, how he treated her, her conversation with Marco has made her realise, despite what he says, that this is precisely her fault*
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But that's the difference - this girl you were talking about, the one you like. You wouldn't constantly be showing her that anger. Even if you felt it, you wouldn't direct it at her every day, letting her know how badly she disappoints you...
*She struggles, after that, to think of what to say. There's any number of emotions going through her right now, and muddled up and confusing. She looks up when Marco says that Ikki has control of his temper, and that seems to sting. If the way Ikki treated her was controlled, then what he really must have been thinking of feeling must have been tenfold*
If you'd told me all this two months ago... Maybe it would be different. But looks like I did it all wrong. And there's nothing I can do about that now.
*Because what Marco has said does make sense - she can see now how maybe she hurt Ikki when she hadn't expected to. No wonder he was the way he was with her. No wonder things had happened as they did. Though Marco said it wasn't her fault, he was telling her now that she could have dealt with things differently, in a way that might have even meant that she and Ikki would still be together. She takes a deep breath and draws herself up to stand, shakily*
It's better that I do nothing, now. I wasn't good enough. I wasn't strong enough. That's all.
*Selphie glances back towards the forest, blinking her wet eyes, and longing to get lost in the trees, to be given a peace of mind, where she doesn't have to hate herself for what she's done to Ikki. Where before Selphie might have blamed Ikki, how he treated her, her conversation with Marco has made her realise, despite what he says, that this is precisely her fault*