uccellodifuoco: And I am so fucked up (006 - Nothing but no trust)
Phoenix Ikki ([personal profile] uccellodifuoco) wrote in [community profile] piratejournal 2014-04-13 02:58 am (UTC)

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[But it's seriously tempting. So tempting.]

I can, even if it's just for a while.

[Even if when he returns he may have lost something like Kairi did. It would be enough. It would be worth it.

Peace. Real peace. No wars, no people to protect, no worries, no emotions, no worlds, no gods. Absolute, unconscious peace. Nothing would hurt, nothing would try to heal what he doesn't want to, nothing would force him to do anything.

He would rise again, of course, from his ashes as always. Everything would start again, no, it would continue because for them it never ends. But goddess wouldn't a pause be bliss.

And it would be so easy too. And it wouldn't matter where he is, in this accursed island or in a volcano, the present or the past. Why doesn't he do it anyway? He will rise again, it will just be a short break, a break that he needs.

Then Marco would be able to return to his dirty ducklings. And the stupid forest wouldn't burn down. And no one would get angry. Who would? Over him taking a break? It's just better that way, if he can't win against them nor join them, what does he have left besides leaving? Even if it's for a while.]


I don't want to.

[He doesn't want to breathe. He doesn't want to live.

Just for a while. Just let him rest. Truly rest. Not this false joy and peace. Not the illusion that fools no one that they have in the ship as it sails in between troubles.

He's not cashing out. He's just taking a break. He will be back.

Just let him rest.]

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