Joy or peace, I don't care. If it's forced on me then it's meaningless.
[And because it's not being "forced in a good way", not when it's pushing someone around. Not when it's playing mind tricks on them. When it doesn't respect boundaries.]
Life... Makes sense.
[Because his natural and instinctive response is to burn it all down and destroy everything. Pretty much like when Guilty told him who his father was. Either destroy everything... Or destroy himself.]
It makes me feel like back when I learned who my father was. When I wanted to destroy everything or just be destroyed, whichever happened first.
[He feels the intoxication, but he's too scarred to answer the way Marco does, he doesn't have an actual bird form to refuge in. So he repels it and snarls and maybe that's why, in turn, it makes him feel as if he just wants to vanish, because he doesn't bow to it. It would be so easy, it would solve everything, he wouldn't have to deal with this island, he wouldn't have to deal with Selphie and her looking at him when she thought he didn't notice or turning around to avoid him at equal times, he wouldn't have to deal with memories and thoughts and worries. Even if it would be just for a few days, it would be real peace.]
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[And because it's not being "forced in a good way", not when it's pushing someone around. Not when it's playing mind tricks on them. When it doesn't respect boundaries.]
Life... Makes sense.
[Because his natural and instinctive response is to burn it all down and destroy everything. Pretty much like when Guilty told him who his father was. Either destroy everything... Or destroy himself.]
It makes me feel like back when I learned who my father was. When I wanted to destroy everything or just be destroyed, whichever happened first.
[He feels the intoxication, but he's too scarred to answer the way Marco does, he doesn't have an actual bird form to refuge in. So he repels it and snarls and maybe that's why, in turn, it makes him feel as if he just wants to vanish, because he doesn't bow to it. It would be so easy, it would solve everything, he wouldn't have to deal with this island, he wouldn't have to deal with Selphie and her looking at him when she thought he didn't notice or turning around to avoid him at equal times, he wouldn't have to deal with memories and thoughts and worries. Even if it would be just for a few days, it would be real peace.]