Remind me to show it to you some day you feel like it.
[There's a pause at the next part, both in Ikki's words and the background noises. After a long moment there's a sigh.]
It's... Complicated. I didn't know I was a phoenix. I didn't feel anything different in me, never noticed that there was something different.
Most kids can't go on for two months without nothing to eat, running around barefooted no matter the weather and still have enough strength to fight an adult. If it wasn't hunger then illnesses would kill them, and if not they would be too weak to fend off the adults. But I was able to do that and more. I even survived an attack from the guardian of a god that was meant to kill me, that would have killed any normal human even if they were at their strongest condition. All it did for me was make me lose consciousness... After she had to use it twice. I forgot that event because they erased my memory but even if I had remembered I wouldn't have thought a lot of it.
It just never occurred to me, you see. I knew that Shun had to eat regularly and did my best to ensure that, but I only procured food for myself after long spans of time. I was hungry, of course, but it was never anything but another annoyance. And then there's how I survived a beating and a travel of several weeks on a ship without any food, water or treatment to my wounds. It wasn't just a mere roughing up, I'm pretty sure I had internal injuries, shouldn't have survived. But I did. Not counting the beatings I got during my training, any normal person would have died from them as well.
But until I gained the Cloth... Until I wore it for the first time... I didn't realize any of that. You could say that I had been divided in two even before birth and that one part was stored in the Cloth and only returned when I gained it.
[Voice]
[There's a pause at the next part, both in Ikki's words and the background noises. After a long moment there's a sigh.]
It's... Complicated. I didn't know I was a phoenix. I didn't feel anything different in me, never noticed that there was something different.
Most kids can't go on for two months without nothing to eat, running around barefooted no matter the weather and still have enough strength to fight an adult. If it wasn't hunger then illnesses would kill them, and if not they would be too weak to fend off the adults. But I was able to do that and more. I even survived an attack from the guardian of a god that was meant to kill me, that would have killed any normal human even if they were at their strongest condition. All it did for me was make me lose consciousness... After she had to use it twice. I forgot that event because they erased my memory but even if I had remembered I wouldn't have thought a lot of it.
It just never occurred to me, you see. I knew that Shun had to eat regularly and did my best to ensure that, but I only procured food for myself after long spans of time. I was hungry, of course, but it was never anything but another annoyance. And then there's how I survived a beating and a travel of several weeks on a ship without any food, water or treatment to my wounds. It wasn't just a mere roughing up, I'm pretty sure I had internal injuries, shouldn't have survived. But I did. Not counting the beatings I got during my training, any normal person would have died from them as well.
But until I gained the Cloth... Until I wore it for the first time... I didn't realize any of that. You could say that I had been divided in two even before birth and that one part was stored in the Cloth and only returned when I gained it.