I think I can understand him. You end up losing everything for your beliefs, and the only two ways for regaining what you had is lying to yourself or showing them all.

[The showing them all does have a lovely favor of vengeance.]

...After all it's not like they'll take you back otherwise...

[Crocker's heart sinks to his stomach as he thinks about Geraldine and states the above and below states in a whisper.]

I still love her.

[That's when his voice picks back up.]

No, I can't say I know how to sail. Expect in theory.

THANK YOU!